Nightmare

I miss you.
I hate you.
I need you.
I love you.
I want you.
Make me hate you.
Please!

I can't stand not having you.
Is there beauty in my heart breaking?
Can you hear the ache in my voice,
The pain in my eyes?
With each sob,
I think it brings up closer,
But breaks us farther apart.

When I last saw you,
You didn't even hug me.
I was leaving.
I was gone.
Hardly no phone calls.
Ignoring mine.
What did I do?
I am so stupid.

You couldn't love someone like me.
You couldn't be with someone like me.
Am I a freak cause I wear black?
AM I THE OUTSIDER CAUSE PEOPLE AVOID ME!
AM I THE PERSON YOU WANT,
BUT AFRAID OF WHAT PEOPLE WILL THINK?
I am no different from you.
I would have died for you.
I still would.

Why am I different?
You told me I was different,
Different from all the "normal" people.
Remember sitting in that corner,
And you saying, "we'll be the death of each other."
I do.
I believed you.
I still do.

But now I know you don't care about me.
I know you never loved me.
I know you told me lies.
GOOD!
I'M GOING TO BE THE PERSON YOU FEARED I WOULD HAVE BEEN!
I'M GOING TO BE THE "FREAK" YOU SPOKE SO MUCH OF HIDING.
I'M GOING TO BE THE GIRL YOU'RE GOING TO REGRET HURTING.
They don't call me NightMare for nothing.