New Life (8) - Part - 2

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Ila POV: :

That was my first kiss indeed. I was saving it for my true love. I was saving it for someone whom I would love from the bottom of my heart and he stole it. Was it that bad that I lost it to him? I don't know.

I couldn't deny the fact that his sensation over me sent shivers down my body. It was magical. It was like it lasted forever and I was carried away by that. I could still feel his lips over mine and the fluttery feeling in my stomach each time I think of that moment. I stayed still with my lips glued to his and I did not move nor hesitate.But why? I must have hesitated and jerked him away. But I didn't. I did let him come into me. And then the way he stared into my eyes, I could still feel those eyes on me. I felt some kind of glint in those eyes. The way he searched my face, I could sense some thing else in his mind. What was it? What was he up to? I've to know about that.

"So what did he do this time?"

"He kissed-"

Then suddenly I realized that I answered an unusual question that came suddenly from a rather familiar voice distracting me from my thoughts. I looked up awkwardly from where I had been sitting since hours; I was in the balcony behind the house and it was almost midnight.

I rolled my eyes as I saw Alex standing right in front of me with his hands in his pocket and with that usual grin on his face.
Then I've realized that I just told him something, which I shouldn't have.

"Umm..Wh-what are you talking about?" I shrugged my shoulders uncomfortably.
"Well, I know you heard it and I also heard your answer Ila" He said sarcastically and sobered up as in there is no way out to avoid this and I knew I should answer this one.
After all that happened today, I really need someone to talk to. There are many unanswered questions in my mind and I need to find an answer to those. I have to understand this person who had been in my mind. And I couldn't find a better person than Alex who would help me right now.
I was staring at my feet with my head down and lost in my own thoughts while Alex caught hold of my shoulders and lifted my chin to make me look at him.

"Did he hurt you.?" he was concerned.

I just nodded while he was waiting...

"Hmm.. Hows Allyson? I guess I haven't missed much of an information about you guys.." I tried to change the topic, while his face turned serious.

"Fine. If you are so much interested about that, we are officially together now. Is this enough or you need more?"

"Oh...Tha-that's really good" I was happy for them but then I saw the look in his face. He was staring at me with an eyebrow raised. I could see he was getting irritated now.

"Ok fine. Don't look at me like that Alex. It's just that I never wanted to speak about him to you, you know I don't want to complain or-"

"So you think if you don't tell me I wouldn't know?" He cut me off and I looked at him in surprise.

"What do you mean?" I raised my eyebrows.

"Mart talks to me everything Ila.But why do you guys have to fight and make things worse between you. I just don't understand?"

"Ask your friend Alex. It's not me, It's him; he hates me, He behaves this rude with me and annoys me completely, I don't know what on earth is his problem with me. You won't believe what he did in the party. He just grabbed me out of the hall while I was dancing with Franklin and then he-" I couldn't complete this. It was difficult.I found my words hesitating to come out of me.

"I know it all.." he stated and again It came as a blow.Mart speaks to him all these?

"But there is a lot that you should know about him Ila."He added.

"I don't want to Alex. Just find me a place to live and I'll move from here. I am just too messed up with all these.

"Alright. I will.But first just listen to me. He is not what you think of Ila You have to know the real Martin. And don't you want to know the reason for his behavior towards you?"
I was silent. He has a point. I really want to know that. So he continued.

"Ok..There are two things that you should know about him.
One, It's about Genne.
Mr. Greg is not Mart's father Ila.He is his stepfather and Genne's true love. Greg and Genne had been together since their childhood and they had been family friends. They always wanted to be together but due to some unhappening family problems and various other reasons; let's not get into those right now but because of all those, Genne had to marry
Mr. Charles Stevenson, Greg's elder brother, and Mart's father.

Soon she realized that she cannot be happy with this decision and with Greg always being around her it was difficult for her stay in that marriage. When Mr. Charles realized this he understood them and he gave her what she wanted. He divorced her and also convinced Greg to marry her. And since then they had been together."

He paused and looked at me. I didn't understand what was he up to. I actually didn't get what would that have to do with Martin. He continued answering my thoughts.

"Mart was about 4 then, and was too small to understand certain things.Mr.Charles was a very good father. He always loved Mart a lot. But to keep him away from all these he sent him to a boarding school. Mart also loved him a lot.Mr.Charles always made sure that nothing back home affected Mart in any way and he did everything possible to keep Mart happy. Mart was really very close to him.

He was around 8 when he was home for vacations and it was the time when Mr. Charles passed away due to some heart disease. Mart also came to know everything as Genne thought it was the right time and he would understand her. But she was wrong. He took it in a wrong way. He was very upset and couldn't come out from this for many days. In fact even till today he couldn't come out of that. Since then he always had this opinion that Genne and Greg are responsible for his father's death. He hated Greg and could never accept him as his father. He always blamed Greg for what happened to Mr. Charles and that's how he started hating everything around him. It's not just hatred it's the way to get over the love of his father and forget him."

"But why does he hate me?" I became emotional all of a sudden. My voice broke and I really wanted to know this.

"Mart had a girl in his life" he stated.

My eyes opened wide and my jaw dropped. I looked at him with curiosity filled in my eyes. I wanted to know more about this.

"They were together in their high school. He loved her a lot. He was damn serious about her. She was everything for him...and after so many years of his father's death he actually started coming out of it being with her. He was completely head over heals in love with her. But she couldn't love him back to the same extent. They hanged out together for a while but then she dumped him. The only reason for that was she found her true love in someone else and it's not Mart. He was hurt. He was smashed into pieces. His hopes were completely shattered. He couldn't take this kind of pain any longer and he changed himself completely.

He started hating people around him. He didn't find any reason to love people. He took for granted that he would never find people who would love him truly and unconditionally. He became this stubborn and rude that he stopped realizing feelings of others. There were people who loved him including Genne and Greg but he never tried to realize their love, instead he betrayed them and hated them. He thought everything they do was for a purpose.

He never wanted to trust love; instead he searched purposes behind their love. He thought Genne married Charles with a purpose to get his property and that girl was with him with a purpose of just hang around with a guy. He never understood the concept of true love for which they had to do things like that. He stopped trusting people. He started using them, he used girls, he betrayed them, he used his property to fulfill his desire, and he used everything around him for his own selfish desires. That's how he thought of leading his life. He thought if he would be isolated from all no one could ever hurt him again....."

I was still staring at him.
"But why does he HATE ME. Why me..??"
Then he sighed and took out his mobile from his pocket. He went through it and then turned it around to show me something in it.
"This is the girl I was talking about.."

Then I turned my gaze to his mobile "Priya" he added. I couldn't believe my eyes. She was a lot similar to me. She has the same eyes, same complexion and her hair was just the same. I shifted my gaze from his mobile to him and rolled my eyes...and again kept staring. I couldn't believe what I saw...!!!

"She is an Indian??" I exclaimed.
Ok it wasn't like a twin sister or a complete look alike or something like that but one can see her from far and think it's me,

"She is from an Indian family settled here years ago. She has got nothing Indian to her except her looks. She was born and brought up here. And she has some of the similar expressions and body language as that of you. It's not a complete coincidence but somehow you remind him of her..."

"And that's why he hates me.."

The tears that I was holding back just came out of my eyes. It felt bad. It felt worst. I felt like someone stabbed right into my heart and shattered it into pieces. I didn't like the fact that I remind him of someone whom he hates or may be loves. What is it?.

He talks to me every night so casually as if he is familiar to me. I had always been wondering why? Now I get it. He thinks me like her. He hates me because he wants to hate her. He shouts at me when I am with another guy only because he thinks about her, not me...and this is what the kiss meant,nothing else. The kiss that magical for me means nothing to him. It's not me whom he stares with his eyes sparkling and wide open, he stares only to search for her in me...I actually do not exist for him at all...

Why should this happen to me? Why me?...!!!!