Addiction

My addiction. I'm addicted. Floating in the sky. My body is lifted. The pain is gone it just went by. Why do I keep taking them I don't no. My body keeps begging for more and more. lord please help me. I cant get off them. I cant shake them. Taking more and more I'm afraid to die. But the addiction is strong why would I make up a lie. Jump off the cliff I know I can fly. I see my whole world go by. Its getting to hot I'm burning. I'm sweating sweat dripping down my forehead I'm groaning. In the sky gliding. No wings on my back but I'm still flying. Just minding my own. Everybody in this world is my clone. They see me suffering they feel my pain. Laying on the floor. No one comes to my aid. Lay down to sleep. But this sleep is forever. Took so many pills I know that wasn't clever. But I'm not going down no never. Woke up less than a hour with a cold sweat. But I'm not done ..not yet. Taking more wondering will I die. I would love to kiss my whole family..give them my last good bye. Even tho I'm not strong enough this world is all mine. All u see is straight lines in my wrist. Laying down in bed balling my fist. I got a lot of thing to accomplish heres my list. I'm going to full fill my dreams and my wish. I still think I own this world. Lord listen to me I just got a few words. Make me happy fix my addiction. I need to come up with a better solution. Something is better than nothing. I think the flesh inside my body is rotting. I'm getting eaten alive. I'm like a survivor in a island with no supply. Why am I crazy? sitting here wondering why? Despite that I need help. No one was there for me no one knew how I felt. ...but wait I woke up and realize this was all a dream not real this is what my addiction had made me feel. My brain was spinning like a out of control wheel. I'm done with this addiction done deal. My mind was playing tricks on me. I guess this is what I am ..i always will be. Lord ill see u one day. Everybody make room make way I'm coming home today only if my heart doesn't slowly fade....