My Theme

Today suggests happiness will be gone for a while
That it will be a lengthy time until I again feel my smile
The times are tough, and I've been feeling down
These hardships are the reason that I wear this crooked frown

I'm disappointed in my life and the way I turned out
Yet there is hope that I may bring myself about
Reflection on mistakes reminds me of the courage it takes
For my friends to be so strong that they keep carrying on

I'm envious, truly, of their strength and ambition
The way they keep fighting for their goal's fruition
I wish I had that power, that courage and faith
But I was not blessed by these by "His" grace

I'm just a blip on the radar of this world
A place I didn't ask for. A place I was hurled
Well it's been some time since I've had a good cry
Even though my life these days has gone so awry

Maybe that's the strength that I had been given
But it's not the ambition for which I had striven
I strive for striving for something to do or be
I guess that is just what it means to be me

A tragedy with hope hung from a rope in this life
I wonder if I can cut it down with a willed knife
A battle that has always raged between me and my dreams
I suppose in my story that would be my theme