My Silent Scream

This is what I feel sometimes. It’s hard for me to resist the call of the blade and most times I give in without a fight...
I lie awake night after night
I toss and turn trying to resist the urge
I try to resist the blade that calls to me so softly
It doesn't work and I walk to it
I pick it up and feel the coolness of it
So cold against my hot skin
I press down and run it harder over my flesh
My mind explodes in pain
The pain of my past
Of everyday life
And of the blade
I want to scream out
I want to take it back and call for my mother
My mother that always comforted me
But she will not come
She will not understand
So I scream a silent scream
As I see all of my life flash before me
My parents
My friends
My one true love
I gasp for air as I go cold
I see his face
He's smiling at me
Then I go numb
The image of his face fades
I let out one more silent scream
And then I die

By hinata moa
Published: 2/26/2008		 Your Contributions: Tell us a Poem! You don't have to be a Buzzle.com author to contribute to Poetry Bee. Submit a poem of your own right now!
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yeah, I cut so I know how you feel
no, I don't cut and I think you're insane
get some help
are you totally emo???
freak
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