My Secret

I have this secret
But if anyone found out it would be the end,
Everything would be ruined,

My best friend and my friendship would be over
But it is a secret that I could not keep a secret much longer
I try telling myself that it is not true and that my heart is lying to my head

My secret is a very strong feeling, it is one of the strongest feelings a human can feel
I try letting the feeling go and not think about it
But every time I close my eyes it slips back into my mind
It taunts me every day and every night,

The more I tell myself it is not true the more I think about it
It leads me to the idea that it is a feeling I cannot let go of
It's not a feeling that goes away just like that

It's a feeling that should be expressed,
But if I do express this secret,
My life would be devastated.

So with my feeling I will live,
I will live mentally in pain and knowing that I have a strong feeling that cannot be spoken of

I will survive feeling like my body is going to explode
I will live trying to keep my feeling a secret

If I am not able to talk without leading someone on
I will not talk

I will have to walk and know I have a secret
That is how I am going to have to go on with life, with my secret in mind.