My Only Conviction

I hate everything about my life
I hate not knowing what I should do
I hate staring at my roommate's knife
I hate just living until I'm through

Through with the days of dragging my feet
Through with the depiction of student I do
Through with the unambitious motions I repeat
Through with the people, yes, including you

You are everything that I can hate
You are the enemy of which I berate
You make the decisions I have to debate
You built up yourself while I negate

I negate myself, I am contradiction
I negate my parents beliefs of what I should be
I negate my life, I am restriction
I negate my feelings of what I can see

Can I see the god who is said to create?
Can I see the wad of my non-conviction?
Can I see the hand that guides my fate?
Can I see the binding of my constriction?

Fuck my parents
Fuck my life
Fuck you god
Fuck his knife

This is my life
I live how I want to
This is my strife
I do what I can do

You cannot ask any more of my being
I'm going to destroy my family's depiction
This is something you'll soon be seeing
This is my one and only conviction