My Heart Belongs To You... PART 3

I no longer picture us together and how we could be. I am letting you go because I don't want to continue putting myself through this torture that will probably never stop unless I stop it now. My heart cries, my heart hurts; it really and truly does. Even though nobody believes this or me when I say it, at least I know the truth. I'm not going to continue to pierce my heart for you; with the lies that I keep telling myself.

I know that this is what I should think and what I should do. But I can't. I won't.

I had a magical time with you that one night. I got to know you in a way that I never did before, and I think I showed you the true me too. I let my guard down for those few hours. With you, I was not self-conscious; I didn't care whether I was making a fool out of myself or what you were thinking when I did so. I loved the fact that I didn't have to pretend with you.

All of my friends loved you and thought we had great chemistry. That we looked great together. And that wasn't even my concern. I have to admit though, that you did look handsome in your black suite and white tie. Better that me and it was my night!

Okay, I'll be honest, you weren't completely perfect the entire evening. You are so time challenged that it amazes me. One normal minute to me is like 10 minutes to you. It drove me crazy! But the thing is; I couldn't stay cheesed off with you even when I tried. And I was trying hard. Funny enough I can keep a grudge for long if I wanted to, it seems that this isn't true when you are concerned though.

I do believe that some part of you knows I'm head over heels for you. If you don't know then you're absolutely bonkers! I know that in reality we do have a minute chance to be together, minus the few people who wouldn't want this to happen. But I won't make myself sick over it or fall deeper for you. I'm going to keep my head held high and accept whatever might happen, that you most probably will pick someone else over me. But that's okay. Really, it is. If I can still have you in my life as a friend then I know part of me will still be happy. You are a great person, a fun person and I know that you could never intentionally hurt me. I know that if you break my heart, you will never even know.