My Final Breath

I won't be making it after all
This is my final year
All my dreams out of the window
Or down the side of a blade
Death is so far away it's tempting to cheat
I cannot stand this
Fighting and pain
My mind is made up
I will die after grad
Many ways but which was is right
My friends won't care
Neither will my family
I really hate my life but I'm only a youth
One who has nothing can life be so cruel
So kiss me goodbye, and act like nothing is wrong
Smile like you always do
The final stage is set
The crowd is ready
The lights are gone in action
Yet I freeze as frozen on stage
Wondering am I doing it right and for what reason
What will I get for dying nothing much but blackness
What's out there for me, am I alone
Or will I be with someone like me
When will I receive the final blow
The thing that will push me over the edge
Is it your love that died
Or your cruel words that gave the blade the reason to go
Nobody really knows what pushed me over
So kiss me goodbye as I leave into the next
Watch me over and let the tears fall down your face
We will be together next is your turn...