My Feelings...

Have you ever had that feeling?
Like no one understands you?
And no matter what you do..
No matter how many smiles you show people,
You're hurting inside...?
And it's apparent to others,
But they just don't like to bring it up?

No matter what I do..
I feel like that...
I feel like there's no place in this world for me...
All these people who try to help me..
All the things I’ve tried...
I'm still all alone in a room full of people...

In the mall, I feel like I’m being stared at...
Wherever I go I feel like I have no reason at all to be happy,
It's that feeling where you get annoyed at people for no reason...
You snap on people all the time...
You feel cold inside all the time..
You make fun of people just to make yourself feel better...

And when you finally realize what you're doing..
It's too late..
You've already ruined your life..
Your friends are mad at you b/c they just don't understand...
And you can't talk to anyone about it....
Only b/c you feel like they'll think you're psycho...
Or worse...
Suicidal!

I've been feeling like that!
It's kinda a feeling you can't get rid of...
You feel like you have a dark cloud following you everywhere you go..
When people look at you they frown...
It seems like you'll never be happy!
And these feelings that haunt me ever so much..
Are the same feelings that haunted my cousin for a while...
Finally, she gave up...
Thinking like this is the reason my cousin is in the ground...
But...
I can't get rid of it..
So maybe..
Just maybe, I belong right on side of her...?