Monster in Me

I realize 
Sometimes I cannot look at myself in the mirror. 
Specifically my eyes, 
Cause every time I try 
I see the monster in me.

See there's a war going on
Things destroyed inside of me
My head starts to pound
Then everything around me
Starts making sense.

Then I walk away from that mirror
And swear I'll never go back again
Until I hear "you're beautiful" 
Then just end up in the same place.

While I'm scaring everyone away
He just says with me
While I yelled at him
I started to realize.

There's a monster in me
Craving for his meat
But hurting him constantly
I'm sorry I always apologize.

I realize 
Sometimes I cannot look at myself in the mirror. 
Specifically my eyes, 
Cause every time I try 
I see the monster in me.

I start to cry- I-I-I
Die a little more inside
Knowing my monster is
Gonna hurt him again.

And I know he'll still call me beautiful
He'll forgive me
But I feel that he hates me
Cause his words start to....change.

There's a monster in me
Craving for his meat
But hurting him constantly
I'm sorry I always apologize.

I realize 
Sometimes I cannot look at myself in the mirror. 
Specifically my eyes, 
Cause every time I try 
I see the monster in me.