Miracle in the Making
This is about the birth of my daughter and how I met her father.
Have you ever experienced a miracle? Have you ever stopped to think that something you thought wouldn't be miraculous is to another person? Well this is my story about my tiny little miracle. Let me start off by telling you how I met my husband. We met during high school. I was a freshman and he was a senior. We were best friends back then, but nothing happened. We look back now and said we wish we could have changed things. That way we wouldn't have made the first two mistakes but God had a purpose for us.
Well Shane graduated and went off to college. I continued on with high school and dated a guy in the band. I was also in the band but that is best saved for another story. Shane soon married a girl named Laura Presley from college. I heard about it from Shane's brother-in-law's family. It was embarrassing seeing the announcement in the paper hanging up in my locker. She knew I had a crush on Shane and she was rubbing it in that I didn't get him. Well I after he had gotten married I decided I would go to him but I couldn't make myself do it. I had decided if he was happy, then I could be happy for him.
About a year and half later they broke up and I was soon to graduate high school. I was engaged to CJ and that didn't work out either. I graduated high school and went off to college. CJ and I were done and for a while I was glad to be alone. I didn't need a man I had about decided. But that changed when I met my first husband Paul. He worked at the grocery store that I worked at during college. I was a cashier and he was a bagger. Soon that changed from being friends to a steady couple.
By the time November of 2002 hit, I was engaged to him. When April of 2003 hit, we were married. I didn't like being married to him because I felt like I was married to his mother. All the time she was constantly in my house, doing my duties as a wife, and bragging about how smart her daughter was than my husband. I hated it. So I told Paul about it and he told his mother to leave us alone. She didn't stop and finally I gave him an altimatum in October of 2004. I told him it was either tell his mother to back off for good or he could go home to her.
He chose her and we divorced in November of 2004. Then I had met another guy named Todd. We were engaged by December of 2004. By the time March of 2005 hit, we were married. Todd was alright in the beginning but he had an addiction to sex. Not with me but to other people. In June of 2005 we moved from Alabama to Pennslyvania. It was a nightmare in the making. His mother and father hated me from the start. I decided to finish college at Penn State and he hated that. So in August of 2005 we separated and he moved to the next town over with some swinging friends of his.
I was heartbroken in reality but I had a good time to go before finishing my finals and they were coming up at the end of the semester. I kept telling myself I could do it. And I did do it with the help of working two jobs, being broke, and striving to maintain good grades. I finished with an associate degree in Music Education in December of 2005. Then I told myself it was time for a change in my life. Even though I really didn't want to come home because it was giving up, I did. Sometimes you realize you've fought the battles enough, and it's time to throw in the towel. So I contacted Todd and told him I was leaving and coming home to Alabama.
Back in Alabama several boyfriends later, and one divorce later, I met Shane again. He and I dated for one month before getting married. In July of 2008, I found out I was pregnant. At first I didn't know whether to be happy of sad. Shane and I fought a lot at first when we got married. Then we settled down after a while. In December of 2008, I had to be put in the hospital. I had bladder and kidney problems. Come to find out there was a kidney stone blocking the tube from my right kidney into my bladder. It couldn't drain and was creating more kidney stones.
The doctors wanted to put a stint in my bladder so my kidney could possibly drain a little. It burned and hurt for three months until on February 15th, Dr. Young decided he was induce labor. I was scared and happy at the same time. I was glad that my daughter was coming into the world but scared because I was afraid something might happen during birth. Well after all the drugs went in, I was out of it. The doctor broke my water and labor was on.
At first I was scared and mother and Shane was there to reassure me everything would be alright. Dr. Young came in two hours later to check on me and I hadn't dilated much. The umbilical cord was wrapped around the baby's neck. Terrified I looked into my husband's eyes. Dr. Young gently told me this, "We can try to deliver her naturally or we can try to do an emergency c-section. It's totally up to you guys." I knew the answer deep down. I wanted it over with and I wanted her safe in my arms. I told him to do it and they rushed me back.
Mother assured me and Shane did too that everything would be alright. At the last-minute when they were prepping me for surgery I got scared. I started to panic and they told me to calm down. I begged them to put me under to sleep and they did. When I awakened I panicked wanting to know where my baby was. They said everything was fine and I was the mother of a healthy young baby girl. I laughed between the tears and asked them when I could see her. They told me as soon as I was wheeled back upstairs.
When I was wheeled back upstairs, I first laid eyes upon my baby daughter. She lay in the warmer asleep, coddled in a small blanket. I asked to hold her and my husband slowly laid her in my arms. I looked down at her tiny hands and her tiny face and through small slits she looked at me with those tiny amazing eyes. I was enamored! She was beautiful and it was hard to believe the love my husband and I shared created such a tiny being. My love for her was never ending. See this is where you see my miracle coming in.
The first two marriages I never used birth control, but I never had a child. The first two marriages Shane had, never had a child. I believe with all my heart that God led us together for a reason. He led us together for that child...I named her Samantha, which means listener of God. Danielle is her middle name which means God is my judge. And then her last name. She was my miracle from God and I believe that with all my heart. Every time I look at her I am reminded that God does create miracles...but you just have to believe.
My life has been full of perils and tribulation but some good has come out of that too. Lessons have been learned...mistakes have been made but corrected. You just have to believe and let faith guide you in your life...
Well Shane graduated and went off to college. I continued on with high school and dated a guy in the band. I was also in the band but that is best saved for another story. Shane soon married a girl named Laura Presley from college. I heard about it from Shane's brother-in-law's family. It was embarrassing seeing the announcement in the paper hanging up in my locker. She knew I had a crush on Shane and she was rubbing it in that I didn't get him. Well I after he had gotten married I decided I would go to him but I couldn't make myself do it. I had decided if he was happy, then I could be happy for him.
About a year and half later they broke up and I was soon to graduate high school. I was engaged to CJ and that didn't work out either. I graduated high school and went off to college. CJ and I were done and for a while I was glad to be alone. I didn't need a man I had about decided. But that changed when I met my first husband Paul. He worked at the grocery store that I worked at during college. I was a cashier and he was a bagger. Soon that changed from being friends to a steady couple.
By the time November of 2002 hit, I was engaged to him. When April of 2003 hit, we were married. I didn't like being married to him because I felt like I was married to his mother. All the time she was constantly in my house, doing my duties as a wife, and bragging about how smart her daughter was than my husband. I hated it. So I told Paul about it and he told his mother to leave us alone. She didn't stop and finally I gave him an altimatum in October of 2004. I told him it was either tell his mother to back off for good or he could go home to her.
He chose her and we divorced in November of 2004. Then I had met another guy named Todd. We were engaged by December of 2004. By the time March of 2005 hit, we were married. Todd was alright in the beginning but he had an addiction to sex. Not with me but to other people. In June of 2005 we moved from Alabama to Pennslyvania. It was a nightmare in the making. His mother and father hated me from the start. I decided to finish college at Penn State and he hated that. So in August of 2005 we separated and he moved to the next town over with some swinging friends of his.
I was heartbroken in reality but I had a good time to go before finishing my finals and they were coming up at the end of the semester. I kept telling myself I could do it. And I did do it with the help of working two jobs, being broke, and striving to maintain good grades. I finished with an associate degree in Music Education in December of 2005. Then I told myself it was time for a change in my life. Even though I really didn't want to come home because it was giving up, I did. Sometimes you realize you've fought the battles enough, and it's time to throw in the towel. So I contacted Todd and told him I was leaving and coming home to Alabama.
Back in Alabama several boyfriends later, and one divorce later, I met Shane again. He and I dated for one month before getting married. In July of 2008, I found out I was pregnant. At first I didn't know whether to be happy of sad. Shane and I fought a lot at first when we got married. Then we settled down after a while. In December of 2008, I had to be put in the hospital. I had bladder and kidney problems. Come to find out there was a kidney stone blocking the tube from my right kidney into my bladder. It couldn't drain and was creating more kidney stones.
The doctors wanted to put a stint in my bladder so my kidney could possibly drain a little. It burned and hurt for three months until on February 15th, Dr. Young decided he was induce labor. I was scared and happy at the same time. I was glad that my daughter was coming into the world but scared because I was afraid something might happen during birth. Well after all the drugs went in, I was out of it. The doctor broke my water and labor was on.
At first I was scared and mother and Shane was there to reassure me everything would be alright. Dr. Young came in two hours later to check on me and I hadn't dilated much. The umbilical cord was wrapped around the baby's neck. Terrified I looked into my husband's eyes. Dr. Young gently told me this, "We can try to deliver her naturally or we can try to do an emergency c-section. It's totally up to you guys." I knew the answer deep down. I wanted it over with and I wanted her safe in my arms. I told him to do it and they rushed me back.
Mother assured me and Shane did too that everything would be alright. At the last-minute when they were prepping me for surgery I got scared. I started to panic and they told me to calm down. I begged them to put me under to sleep and they did. When I awakened I panicked wanting to know where my baby was. They said everything was fine and I was the mother of a healthy young baby girl. I laughed between the tears and asked them when I could see her. They told me as soon as I was wheeled back upstairs.
When I was wheeled back upstairs, I first laid eyes upon my baby daughter. She lay in the warmer asleep, coddled in a small blanket. I asked to hold her and my husband slowly laid her in my arms. I looked down at her tiny hands and her tiny face and through small slits she looked at me with those tiny amazing eyes. I was enamored! She was beautiful and it was hard to believe the love my husband and I shared created such a tiny being. My love for her was never ending. See this is where you see my miracle coming in.
The first two marriages I never used birth control, but I never had a child. The first two marriages Shane had, never had a child. I believe with all my heart that God led us together for a reason. He led us together for that child...I named her Samantha, which means listener of God. Danielle is her middle name which means God is my judge. And then her last name. She was my miracle from God and I believe that with all my heart. Every time I look at her I am reminded that God does create miracles...but you just have to believe.
My life has been full of perils and tribulation but some good has come out of that too. Lessons have been learned...mistakes have been made but corrected. You just have to believe and let faith guide you in your life...
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