Million Dollar Call Girl: Chapter 51: RE-POST
Scarlet reveals her past. THE LAST CHAPTER DIDN'T POST!!!!!!! I'm so sorry about that!
Author's Note: I'm so sorry guys! My computer crashed in the middle of posting fricken chapter! As of this minute, my computer is slow and probably going to crash again.
Oh, Btw- There's one more thing to reveal about Scarlett's past. And, it's doozy so I'll wait until next chapter to reveal it.
Comment replies:
AGAIN MY COMPUTER CRASHED AND THE CHAPTER DIDN'T POST! SO SORRY.
Tavita K, Radu, Courtney, Jazzy, ; You're comment reply is just above. ha, so sorry guys!
Faith K- So randomness, I'm four months away from graduating from highschool! Yay! I only have five tests to take. So, yep that's my random thing of the day!
OMG Me too! This computer has crashed over and over. And, it's going to crash again very soon! Stupid Viruses.
HAHHHAHHHA OMG THAT SO FUNNY!!!! SNOOKIS is 4-8 ish. Which makes me want to be 4-8. See, it's just weird. I'm like almost between average height and being short. I'm 5-5 ish and not growing! So, it's short...but it's not little short.
Ohhh, that's so cool. I can't even pronounce that word! REALLY? Ha, I can speak spanish. Hola, Loca... Umm??? Yep, See I can say TWO WHOLE WORDS IN SPANISH! Oh, being a role model is harddd!
Say awesome and Amazing.
STOLENNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!! LOVE THAT SONG! :D
Listen to 'Bang, Bang By Christina Perri.'
So do you have any crushes at school? Cause, I have one at class. lol
The trail lasted fifty six days.
Lizzie was sent to jail for two years and lost her entire company. I had to pay a small fine of ten thousand dollars. And Ivan was ordered to pay the same.
* * * *
I knocked on Nathan's door. He opened the door, but when he saw me he slammed the door in my face.
"Nathan, I'm here to talk to you. I'll tell you anything you want."
The door opened and he leaned against the frame of the door. His hair was matted and sticking up. His eyes were bloodshed and tears were in his eyes. His arms wrapped tightly around me and he crushed me against his chest.
"I've been looking at pictures of her all day."
"I'm sorry Nathan. "
He rubbed his eyes and sighed. His brown eyes looked into mine. "I'm sincerely sorry for what I said to you. I had no right to treat you the way I did. I was just so hurt. Scarlet, it hurts that you wouldn't come seeing her when she was dying. It hurts that you wanted nothing to do with her when she tried to reach out. It hurts that you think she was just this horrible mother when she wasn't!"
Oh, god I'm going to break his heart. I want to run. I don't want to face this now. I feel like I have been avoiding this moment my whole life. Because, the truth is too painful to face.
And, Nathan had a good mother. She changed her entire life for him. She loved him. She never loved me the way she loved him.
Nathan and I walk out to the garden. We take a seat on a white, swing that over looks the yellow and red roses of the garden.
"She loved this garden. She spent every hour of the day here. " Nathan tells
"Nathan, I need to tell you what happened now. Otherwise, I won't have the strength to tell you later." I whispered
My hands were already trembling and my knees were already shaking.
"Okay, I want to know everything. What happened the day you left home. Why you hated her. What kind of falling out the two of you had."
"It's a long story. So bear with me. " I said and sighed.
I closed my eyes, tight. I was going to have to go back to the past. I was going to have to re-live all those dark memories.
"I loved acting class when I was sixteen. I would write skits and I would practice over and over. I knew that I wanted to be an actor and I knew that I would do anything to achieve that dream. I just couldn't imagine doing anything else.
We didn't have very much money and mom was working too jobs to support us. You were so young that I doubt you remember any of this.
I was so happy. I practically lived in drama class and I had the best of the friends. I was young. I was beautiful. I was free-"
I can feel my muscles tighten. I can feel my stomach sink. "But, things didn't stay that away. Mom started to do drugs. Her habit got so out of control that she quit her job. There was less and less food in the house. We were getting behind on the bills. So, I dropped out of school and got two jobs. I tried to pay the bills and I tried to keep food in the house. She begged me for money. The drugs were getting more expensive and she was running out of money. I wouldn't give her a cent. So-"
I pause. "She hit me and told me I was worthless." I look at Nathan. His eyes widened in shock. His jaw was dropped.
"The drugs were the most important thing to her. So, she..... Whored herself out."
I laugh, bitterly. Mother like daughter.
"You're lying!" Nathan shouted, not wanting to hear the rest.
"She had sex with stranger and in return he gave her precious little pills." I told him
Nathan looks torn and confused. "Why would she do that...."
"She was a drug addict and she would do anything to have her drugs. It is as simple as that."
"And, that's why you hate her?"
I shook my head. "Part of the reason. Yes, I do hate her that I dropped out school to help take care of her. To keep food in the house. To keep us from being tossed out the streets. But, the real reason I hate her is because of Christ. Because of what Chris did to me."
The tears start to fall. Deep sobs take over my body. A sea of emotions float through me. Pain, shame, disgust...anger...
Each emotion shakes my body. "Chris was a junkie. My mother was romantically involved with him. She invited him to live with us. He made good money. Fast money. He sold weed, pot, and prescription pills. Anything under the sun, really.
He was in his late thirties and I hated him. I can't really explain it. There was just something creepy and disturbing about him. So, I tried to stay away from him. I locked you in my room and kept you away from Chris, too.
He always looked at me and the way he looked at me disgusted me. I was terrified of him. Terrified of what you might to do to you. Nathan, I was just kid too. But, I tried protecting you from Chris. I tried protecting you from her.
* * *
Seven years ago, April 5 2004
It was raining and Chris told me mom to go out. I think he just wanted her out of the house. He sent her to the grocery store.
Chris banged and banged on my door. "Scarlett, open up."
"I'm sleeping."
I really hoped that would get him to leave me alone, but it didn't.
"Open this fucking door or I'll break it down."
I wish I would have jumped out the window and ran. I should have known what he would do to me.
I was afraid that he would get more violent if I didn't do what he wanted. So, I opened the door.
"You know she'll be back in a few minutes. "
I guess I thought if my mom was in the house that she would protect me from him. That he wouldn't try to hurt me if she was in the house.
"Oh, she won't be home for a few hours."
He stepped closer to me and ran his hands through my hair. "You're so beautiful, Scarlett. So young, so innocent...."
His eyes were lust stricken and I pulled away from him. Only, that's when he pulled a knife out. Was he capable of murder? Would he kill me if I didn't let them him touch me? I didn't know. So I just let him. I stood still.
He cut my clothes and I remember him dragging the knife down my body. Then his fingers were crawling further and further up my skin.
"Chris, please stop. Please......"
"Shhh, be quiet. I don't want to hurt you."
"NO!! LET GO OF ME!" I Kicked and screamed. I fought as hard I could. He took the knife and he cut me three times against my stomach.
"If you don't shut up, I'll cut your fucking head off."
I stayed quit while he raped on the floor of the bedroom.
Wet, hot tears are streaming down the face. I wish that was the end of the story, but it's not.
"It wasn't the first time he raped me. He come back for me for me. Every night he came back for me. It was two years before I was free of him. I started stripping , but I still wasn't making enough. So, finally I ...that's when I started to have sex for a living. Within a month I had enough money to move out. You were sent to forester Care-"
I sigh. "You were in forester care for three years. Then mom decided she wanted to get clean. She never apologized to me. Because, she had to know about Chris. There were night where Chris would have sex with me in the house while she was home.
She got clean, started her life over and got custody of her. Then she re-married and the rest is history I guess."
Nathan looks stunned. "I...never knew...I never realized"
"Shh, it's okay-"
That when I broke down in more sobs. Nathan threw his arms around me and I clung to him tight. He just held me while I carried and while the dark memories shook me with fear.
I felt relieved to tell another person. Now I wouldn't have to be bear this dark secret on my shoulders anymore.
Oh, Btw- There's one more thing to reveal about Scarlett's past. And, it's doozy so I'll wait until next chapter to reveal it.
Comment replies:
AGAIN MY COMPUTER CRASHED AND THE CHAPTER DIDN'T POST! SO SORRY.
Tavita K, Radu, Courtney, Jazzy, ; You're comment reply is just above. ha, so sorry guys!
Faith K- So randomness, I'm four months away from graduating from highschool! Yay! I only have five tests to take. So, yep that's my random thing of the day!
OMG Me too! This computer has crashed over and over. And, it's going to crash again very soon! Stupid Viruses.
HAHHHAHHHA OMG THAT SO FUNNY!!!! SNOOKIS is 4-8 ish. Which makes me want to be 4-8. See, it's just weird. I'm like almost between average height and being short. I'm 5-5 ish and not growing! So, it's short...but it's not little short.
Ohhh, that's so cool. I can't even pronounce that word! REALLY? Ha, I can speak spanish. Hola, Loca... Umm??? Yep, See I can say TWO WHOLE WORDS IN SPANISH! Oh, being a role model is harddd!
Say awesome and Amazing.
STOLENNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!! LOVE THAT SONG! :D
Listen to 'Bang, Bang By Christina Perri.'
So do you have any crushes at school? Cause, I have one at class. lol
The trail lasted fifty six days.
Lizzie was sent to jail for two years and lost her entire company. I had to pay a small fine of ten thousand dollars. And Ivan was ordered to pay the same.
* * * *
I knocked on Nathan's door. He opened the door, but when he saw me he slammed the door in my face.
"Nathan, I'm here to talk to you. I'll tell you anything you want."
The door opened and he leaned against the frame of the door. His hair was matted and sticking up. His eyes were bloodshed and tears were in his eyes. His arms wrapped tightly around me and he crushed me against his chest.
"I've been looking at pictures of her all day."
"I'm sorry Nathan. "
He rubbed his eyes and sighed. His brown eyes looked into mine. "I'm sincerely sorry for what I said to you. I had no right to treat you the way I did. I was just so hurt. Scarlet, it hurts that you wouldn't come seeing her when she was dying. It hurts that you wanted nothing to do with her when she tried to reach out. It hurts that you think she was just this horrible mother when she wasn't!"
Oh, god I'm going to break his heart. I want to run. I don't want to face this now. I feel like I have been avoiding this moment my whole life. Because, the truth is too painful to face.
And, Nathan had a good mother. She changed her entire life for him. She loved him. She never loved me the way she loved him.
Nathan and I walk out to the garden. We take a seat on a white, swing that over looks the yellow and red roses of the garden.
"She loved this garden. She spent every hour of the day here. " Nathan tells
"Nathan, I need to tell you what happened now. Otherwise, I won't have the strength to tell you later." I whispered
My hands were already trembling and my knees were already shaking.
"Okay, I want to know everything. What happened the day you left home. Why you hated her. What kind of falling out the two of you had."
"It's a long story. So bear with me. " I said and sighed.
I closed my eyes, tight. I was going to have to go back to the past. I was going to have to re-live all those dark memories.
"I loved acting class when I was sixteen. I would write skits and I would practice over and over. I knew that I wanted to be an actor and I knew that I would do anything to achieve that dream. I just couldn't imagine doing anything else.
We didn't have very much money and mom was working too jobs to support us. You were so young that I doubt you remember any of this.
I was so happy. I practically lived in drama class and I had the best of the friends. I was young. I was beautiful. I was free-"
I can feel my muscles tighten. I can feel my stomach sink. "But, things didn't stay that away. Mom started to do drugs. Her habit got so out of control that she quit her job. There was less and less food in the house. We were getting behind on the bills. So, I dropped out of school and got two jobs. I tried to pay the bills and I tried to keep food in the house. She begged me for money. The drugs were getting more expensive and she was running out of money. I wouldn't give her a cent. So-"
I pause. "She hit me and told me I was worthless." I look at Nathan. His eyes widened in shock. His jaw was dropped.
"The drugs were the most important thing to her. So, she..... Whored herself out."
I laugh, bitterly. Mother like daughter.
"You're lying!" Nathan shouted, not wanting to hear the rest.
"She had sex with stranger and in return he gave her precious little pills." I told him
Nathan looks torn and confused. "Why would she do that...."
"She was a drug addict and she would do anything to have her drugs. It is as simple as that."
"And, that's why you hate her?"
I shook my head. "Part of the reason. Yes, I do hate her that I dropped out school to help take care of her. To keep food in the house. To keep us from being tossed out the streets. But, the real reason I hate her is because of Christ. Because of what Chris did to me."
The tears start to fall. Deep sobs take over my body. A sea of emotions float through me. Pain, shame, disgust...anger...
Each emotion shakes my body. "Chris was a junkie. My mother was romantically involved with him. She invited him to live with us. He made good money. Fast money. He sold weed, pot, and prescription pills. Anything under the sun, really.
He was in his late thirties and I hated him. I can't really explain it. There was just something creepy and disturbing about him. So, I tried to stay away from him. I locked you in my room and kept you away from Chris, too.
He always looked at me and the way he looked at me disgusted me. I was terrified of him. Terrified of what you might to do to you. Nathan, I was just kid too. But, I tried protecting you from Chris. I tried protecting you from her.
* * *
Seven years ago, April 5 2004
It was raining and Chris told me mom to go out. I think he just wanted her out of the house. He sent her to the grocery store.
Chris banged and banged on my door. "Scarlett, open up."
"I'm sleeping."
I really hoped that would get him to leave me alone, but it didn't.
"Open this fucking door or I'll break it down."
I wish I would have jumped out the window and ran. I should have known what he would do to me.
I was afraid that he would get more violent if I didn't do what he wanted. So, I opened the door.
"You know she'll be back in a few minutes. "
I guess I thought if my mom was in the house that she would protect me from him. That he wouldn't try to hurt me if she was in the house.
"Oh, she won't be home for a few hours."
He stepped closer to me and ran his hands through my hair. "You're so beautiful, Scarlett. So young, so innocent...."
His eyes were lust stricken and I pulled away from him. Only, that's when he pulled a knife out. Was he capable of murder? Would he kill me if I didn't let them him touch me? I didn't know. So I just let him. I stood still.
He cut my clothes and I remember him dragging the knife down my body. Then his fingers were crawling further and further up my skin.
"Chris, please stop. Please......"
"Shhh, be quiet. I don't want to hurt you."
"NO!! LET GO OF ME!" I Kicked and screamed. I fought as hard I could. He took the knife and he cut me three times against my stomach.
"If you don't shut up, I'll cut your fucking head off."
I stayed quit while he raped on the floor of the bedroom.
Wet, hot tears are streaming down the face. I wish that was the end of the story, but it's not.
"It wasn't the first time he raped me. He come back for me for me. Every night he came back for me. It was two years before I was free of him. I started stripping , but I still wasn't making enough. So, finally I ...that's when I started to have sex for a living. Within a month I had enough money to move out. You were sent to forester Care-"
I sigh. "You were in forester care for three years. Then mom decided she wanted to get clean. She never apologized to me. Because, she had to know about Chris. There were night where Chris would have sex with me in the house while she was home.
She got clean, started her life over and got custody of her. Then she re-married and the rest is history I guess."
Nathan looks stunned. "I...never knew...I never realized"
"Shh, it's okay-"
That when I broke down in more sobs. Nathan threw his arms around me and I clung to him tight. He just held me while I carried and while the dark memories shook me with fear.
I felt relieved to tell another person. Now I wouldn't have to be bear this dark secret on my shoulders anymore.
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