Memories of Love
This is about a girl who is remembering all the good times about her and her ex-boyfriend. Its complicated.
He’s leaving soon... Kelley laid back and stared at her ceiling feeling numb. I can’t live without him. He’s like my other half. She sighed and closed her eyes remembering all good times they had.
"I love you." Kelley’s heart stopped then kicked started. He said he loved me... "I love you too Jared." She remembered hearing him chuckle and replying with a confident "I know". That was the first time he had ever said it to her and she would never forget it. She smiled as tears began to fall down her pale cheeks.
"You’ll never catch me!" I remembered the wind in my hair and the soft soggy sand beneath my feet. I remember the racing of my heart and my erratic breathing. I remember the wide grin on my face and my flushed cheeks. I remember hearing him getting closer until he wrapped his arms around my waist and whispered "gotcha" in my ear I remembered kissing him and feeling my heart soften. Feeling his strong arms around me and feeling the rush of warmth wrapping around me.
"You know you never gave me a nickname." I remember turning on to my stomach and swiping my dirty blonde hair out of my eyes and behind my ear. "Well it’s not exactly an easy thing to do babe." She could hear his grin over the phone. "I already gave you one though my sunshine." Kelley’s heart melted at the sound of her nickname. She didn’t want to tell him that she had already thought of one. Teddy bear didn’t seem to be a masculine name and she wasn’t sure he’d like it. "Well I know but still..." He sighed. "How about teddy bear?" Kelley nodded then realized her couldn’t see her response. "That works good babe."
Kelley remembered more and more times they had spent together. Times where they laughed and times when she cried and he held her in his arms until she couldn’t cry anymore. She remembered the good times and the bad. They rarely had bad times but when they did... Well it doesn’t matter. She remembered the night when she had prayed to god for someone who would love her for herself and then Jared came along. Where would I be if he hadn’t come along? That bring to her mind another memory...
"You can go but only for a week okay?" The time her mother finally let her go home with him. The trip took 4 hours but it was a wonderful trip. She remembered glancing at him when he was driving. He looked so happy and then he turned and smiled at her asking for a kiss. Of course she couldn’t say no to him. She loved him and would give him anything he asked for. She remembered looking in to his beautiful sky blue eyes and watched them turn sea green. She’d never been more in love in her life or been loved so much in her life.
Now everything was turning towards a dark road. They barely talk and only see each other once every 2 months. Everything’s complicated and her emotions are in turmoil. She knew that long distance relationships would be hard but not this hard. Now she had to deal with him leaving to college and finding someone else. Which would be possible seeing as he’s single.
"Maybe we should break up then." Her heart broke as she texted the words. His truck had broken down and she’d gone through the pain of not seeing him for over two months. She knew the words couldn’t be taken back but it had to be said. When he agreed so easily her heart shattered and she felt her world begin to crumble. She remembered crying and crying for hours. She got little sleep and when someone asked her what was wrong she’d begin to cry. She went into a depression and wouldn’t smile. When she found out his truck got fixed soon after she thought that they'd broke up for no reason and he wouldn't accept going back out. Then as time passed it was like they had never broken up in the first place but still now she had new worries. What if he found someone else? What if she was getting boring? When he goes to college will he forget about me? Then one day it all clicked in to place. What happened would happen. She couldn’t predict the future and it was foolish to worry so much about it. He loved her and she loved him and when he loved her no more than they would go their separate ways. She would be his until he no longer wanted her. She was in love for the first time in her life and she wouldn’t let anyone take it away from her without a fight. I remember two famous quotes that I always think of in tough times "There is only one happiness in life -- to love and to be loved" and " You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."
Memories flooded out of Kelley’s mind and she swam in them remembering the hurt and the love. She sighed and reached for her phone dialing in Jared’s number. I just need to hear his voice... Just once before he goes.
"I love you." Kelley’s heart stopped then kicked started. He said he loved me... "I love you too Jared." She remembered hearing him chuckle and replying with a confident "I know". That was the first time he had ever said it to her and she would never forget it. She smiled as tears began to fall down her pale cheeks.
"You’ll never catch me!" I remembered the wind in my hair and the soft soggy sand beneath my feet. I remember the racing of my heart and my erratic breathing. I remember the wide grin on my face and my flushed cheeks. I remember hearing him getting closer until he wrapped his arms around my waist and whispered "gotcha" in my ear I remembered kissing him and feeling my heart soften. Feeling his strong arms around me and feeling the rush of warmth wrapping around me.
"You know you never gave me a nickname." I remember turning on to my stomach and swiping my dirty blonde hair out of my eyes and behind my ear. "Well it’s not exactly an easy thing to do babe." She could hear his grin over the phone. "I already gave you one though my sunshine." Kelley’s heart melted at the sound of her nickname. She didn’t want to tell him that she had already thought of one. Teddy bear didn’t seem to be a masculine name and she wasn’t sure he’d like it. "Well I know but still..." He sighed. "How about teddy bear?" Kelley nodded then realized her couldn’t see her response. "That works good babe."
Kelley remembered more and more times they had spent together. Times where they laughed and times when she cried and he held her in his arms until she couldn’t cry anymore. She remembered the good times and the bad. They rarely had bad times but when they did... Well it doesn’t matter. She remembered the night when she had prayed to god for someone who would love her for herself and then Jared came along. Where would I be if he hadn’t come along? That bring to her mind another memory...
"You can go but only for a week okay?" The time her mother finally let her go home with him. The trip took 4 hours but it was a wonderful trip. She remembered glancing at him when he was driving. He looked so happy and then he turned and smiled at her asking for a kiss. Of course she couldn’t say no to him. She loved him and would give him anything he asked for. She remembered looking in to his beautiful sky blue eyes and watched them turn sea green. She’d never been more in love in her life or been loved so much in her life.
Now everything was turning towards a dark road. They barely talk and only see each other once every 2 months. Everything’s complicated and her emotions are in turmoil. She knew that long distance relationships would be hard but not this hard. Now she had to deal with him leaving to college and finding someone else. Which would be possible seeing as he’s single.
"Maybe we should break up then." Her heart broke as she texted the words. His truck had broken down and she’d gone through the pain of not seeing him for over two months. She knew the words couldn’t be taken back but it had to be said. When he agreed so easily her heart shattered and she felt her world begin to crumble. She remembered crying and crying for hours. She got little sleep and when someone asked her what was wrong she’d begin to cry. She went into a depression and wouldn’t smile. When she found out his truck got fixed soon after she thought that they'd broke up for no reason and he wouldn't accept going back out. Then as time passed it was like they had never broken up in the first place but still now she had new worries. What if he found someone else? What if she was getting boring? When he goes to college will he forget about me? Then one day it all clicked in to place. What happened would happen. She couldn’t predict the future and it was foolish to worry so much about it. He loved her and she loved him and when he loved her no more than they would go their separate ways. She would be his until he no longer wanted her. She was in love for the first time in her life and she wouldn’t let anyone take it away from her without a fight. I remember two famous quotes that I always think of in tough times "There is only one happiness in life -- to love and to be loved" and " You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."
Memories flooded out of Kelley’s mind and she swam in them remembering the hurt and the love. She sighed and reached for her phone dialing in Jared’s number. I just need to hear his voice... Just once before he goes.
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