Memories of Anger

I cling to the past
For it is so vast
But its contents hold
New fortunes of old

I miss the days
Of thoughtless rays
Beaming on faces
Trapped in memorial traces

I miss my notions
Of innocence
I long for tokens
Of simple bliss

I wrought by the fact
That my mind can't keep track
Of the hatred that I've built
And of how I feel guilt

I cannot stay angry
At the people I know
I cannot keep my
Emotions in tow

I just want to shut out the fools
Who've shut me out like it's a rule
But then say they miss me, do
But I can't say I miss them too

Then they stay and I reminisce
Then we play and I start to miss
Even though there's all that weight
I just can't bring myself to fully hate