Love Shots Prologue
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Hilly :)
True Love. 4 letter words put together that has occurred at least once in almost everyone’s lives. Everyone except mine.
Well that is not entirely true, I actually did find love- modeling. Kind of.
You see, I started my modeling career when I was 16, therefore, I had to drop out of school just so that I can pursue my modeling career. But I didn’t care if I had to drop out of school because I was passionate about it since I thought I was perfect for it. I was 5’8 at that time (now 5’10), weighed around 120 pounds (but gained around 13 for abs and muscles), and had the perfect look for almost everything. Thankfully my modeling career was a success until 5 years later, I gained 75 pounds.
How did I gain 75 pounds in 5 years? Well, the simple answer to that is Love Shots.
During the past 5 years, I have only dated someone for the longest 3 weeks. The rest of the guys I was with turned out as just hook-ups.
Why can’t I stay in a long relationship? Well, let’s just say I have bad luck because I only can find guys that want to hook up with me just because I am a model. And just when I think we are going to start a relationship, the guy will either dump me, hook up with another girl, or will just simply ignore me and move on.
So what do I do to cope with the feeling of rejection? Love Shots. When I was under 21 years old, I would take "shots" of chocolate, ice cream, anything that cures the pain. However, when I was legal to drink, to cope with the feeling of rejection, I started to take shots of tequila, whiskey, margarita, anything that has alcohol in it.
And trust me. I have been played a lot since I am the type of girl who falls for anyone.
I guess I just haven’t found the right guy yet. It’s was hard being a model starting at a young age sometimes since I can’t live like a normal person. I’ve never been to prom, never felt what an acceptance letter to my dream school will be like, never graduated- never done anything that doesn’t relate to modeling. I can’t even go out and hang out with my friends because I would have to make sure I get enough sleep for the next busy day. So basically all the guys I meet are pervy photographers that hit on me and make me do weird poses, guys from fashion shows who just wants to hook up with me just to be more famous, and airplane flights but only when I need to fly somewhere for a photo shoot.
Lovely isn’t it? Not.
The only upside to modeling right now is that I am still in a modeling agency since I have a contract. However, since I am now 208 pounds, I am 2 pounds away to being kicked out of my modeling agency, the only agency that has hired me.
It’s not that I didn’t try losing weight. I did. I was on almost every diet you can think of. Nutrisystem, the South Beach Diet, the Salmon Diet, the Master Cleanse diet- you name it, I did it. But since I am not needed for many photo shoots because not much photo shoots need plus size models, I have had time to date. However, I could never hold a conversation longer than 20 minutes with a guy because I have no other interest besides modeling.
And worse of all, since I am now at the weight I am, all the guys I have dated would just laugh because they wouldn’t believe that I am a model since I am overweight. In other words, fat.
So I guess you can say that my life is on the line. If I gain another 2 pounds, I lose everything. And worse of all, I never got an education so I wouldn’t be able to get another job.
Life is just peachy isn’t it? My job is at risk and I STILL don’t have a love life.
But hopefully someday I will be loved in return.
Be sure to check out my first story 11:11pm and my other story Always Yours!
Enjoy,
Hilly :)
True Love. 4 letter words put together that has occurred at least once in almost everyone’s lives. Everyone except mine.
Well that is not entirely true, I actually did find love- modeling. Kind of.
You see, I started my modeling career when I was 16, therefore, I had to drop out of school just so that I can pursue my modeling career. But I didn’t care if I had to drop out of school because I was passionate about it since I thought I was perfect for it. I was 5’8 at that time (now 5’10), weighed around 120 pounds (but gained around 13 for abs and muscles), and had the perfect look for almost everything. Thankfully my modeling career was a success until 5 years later, I gained 75 pounds.
How did I gain 75 pounds in 5 years? Well, the simple answer to that is Love Shots.
During the past 5 years, I have only dated someone for the longest 3 weeks. The rest of the guys I was with turned out as just hook-ups.
Why can’t I stay in a long relationship? Well, let’s just say I have bad luck because I only can find guys that want to hook up with me just because I am a model. And just when I think we are going to start a relationship, the guy will either dump me, hook up with another girl, or will just simply ignore me and move on.
So what do I do to cope with the feeling of rejection? Love Shots. When I was under 21 years old, I would take "shots" of chocolate, ice cream, anything that cures the pain. However, when I was legal to drink, to cope with the feeling of rejection, I started to take shots of tequila, whiskey, margarita, anything that has alcohol in it.
And trust me. I have been played a lot since I am the type of girl who falls for anyone.
I guess I just haven’t found the right guy yet. It’s was hard being a model starting at a young age sometimes since I can’t live like a normal person. I’ve never been to prom, never felt what an acceptance letter to my dream school will be like, never graduated- never done anything that doesn’t relate to modeling. I can’t even go out and hang out with my friends because I would have to make sure I get enough sleep for the next busy day. So basically all the guys I meet are pervy photographers that hit on me and make me do weird poses, guys from fashion shows who just wants to hook up with me just to be more famous, and airplane flights but only when I need to fly somewhere for a photo shoot.
Lovely isn’t it? Not.
The only upside to modeling right now is that I am still in a modeling agency since I have a contract. However, since I am now 208 pounds, I am 2 pounds away to being kicked out of my modeling agency, the only agency that has hired me.
It’s not that I didn’t try losing weight. I did. I was on almost every diet you can think of. Nutrisystem, the South Beach Diet, the Salmon Diet, the Master Cleanse diet- you name it, I did it. But since I am not needed for many photo shoots because not much photo shoots need plus size models, I have had time to date. However, I could never hold a conversation longer than 20 minutes with a guy because I have no other interest besides modeling.
And worse of all, since I am now at the weight I am, all the guys I have dated would just laugh because they wouldn’t believe that I am a model since I am overweight. In other words, fat.
So I guess you can say that my life is on the line. If I gain another 2 pounds, I lose everything. And worse of all, I never got an education so I wouldn’t be able to get another job.
Life is just peachy isn’t it? My job is at risk and I STILL don’t have a love life.
But hopefully someday I will be loved in return.
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