Love Remains Chapter 10

I know I took a long time to get this out, and I am really sorry. But this chapter is long, and hopefully it will be worth it. Thank you for all your nice comments, they encourage me to keep going, and keep them coming. I'm going to need them.....
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After the incident, I was trying my best to stay away from him, but something always came up and we were together. I was trying to put as much wall between us as it was possible, but fate was just pulling us together. And to make the matter even worse, Tom was trying to talk to me. What did he even want from me? As usual, I ignored him. There were rumors going on that Tom and I were back, but the truth was far away from that.

Since I was spending more time with Jordon, I was starting to compare the difference between Tom and him. Jordon was really caring and he gave me space when I needed it. Tom would never do that. He was always so jealous when I talked with some other guy. Jordon didn’t boast about his looks even though he was gorgeous, vs. Tom was too obsessed with himself. If I were to name them all, the list would never end.

But there was a similarity. I loved them both. I was in love with Tom, and in some way I will always be. Jordon was my rescuer, and he meant the world to me. I didn’t deserve to ever love him; he was too good for me. I did love him, but I wouldn’t dare try to see the depth of it.

I was just walking to my classroom when someone roughly yanked me from behind. That person rudely turned me around, and I screamed. He covered his lips with mine to stop me, but I pushed him away.

"What do you want Tom?" My voice was cold.

"You knew it was me even without looking at me." He acted like he was impressed, as if I even cared.

"Who else could do something so stupid?" I blurted.

He grabbed me close while I tried to free myself. "Let go of me!" He acted as if he hadn’t heard me.

"You need to listen to me."

"I need to go. I am getting late for my class."

He acted as if I hadn’t said a word to him. "Let me go." My voice pleaded.

"Let her go!" Someone said in a very angry voice. We both turned around to see that it was Jordon. I signed with relief, and taking Tom’s shocked expression as my cue, I ran toward Jordon, and he automatically held me in his arms. And I held on to him as if it was the most natural thing for me to do. "If you as much as touch her, I will break your jaw." His heart was beating really fast with anger, and I turned to look at him to see that his dark eyes were flashing angrily. I couldn’t take my eyes off of him. What was it with him? He seemed so tensed, and I couldn’t help but wonder why he was doing this. Did I actually mean that much to him? Did he actually really love me? I mean like really loved me?

He turned to look at me, and his expression softened. I felt like my reserve was melting, and I wanted to give in. I wanted to give myself completely to him, let him love me, and let him take care of me. We were so close to each other, and I could basically feel his breath on my face. Only mere inches separated us, and if only I moved slightly, I will feel his lips on mine. I will feel his soft, warm lips kissing me gently, and warmly, filling me with his love…. At that moment there was nothing more I wanted than to give in. I wanted him close to me, so close that nothing will be between us. I wanted a chance to love him, and I wanted to kiss him.

He removed the tendril of hair from my face ever so softly. He was being very careful with me, and I held on tightly to him. I looked at his beautiful, loving face, and at that moment, I realized that I wanted him really bad. I wanted him, and I felt like I needed him. I needed him like the air I was breathing in. My mouth started to open ever so slightly, and I could see a small smile forming in his face before he lowered his face to kiss me.

Someone hissed angrily, and we both pulled away, both hesitant. He still had his arms around my waist protectively, and I pressed my body closer to his, not wanting to be away from him, even for a second. I wasn’t really thinking what I was doing; only my growing feelings for him existed.

Tom looked so furious and it made me want to laugh, and I would have if the situation was different. Instead of Tom, I was more conscious of Jordon, and his arms around me sending shivers down my spine.

"Jordon lets go," I said before Tom could say anything. I really didn’t want them to get into a fight, especially not because of me. Tom’s expression looked even more furious, if that was possible. He had a huge ego, and that was probably why he was mad. He didn’t want me, and he was just trying to talk to me because now, I had Jordon. The realization of my own words hit me, I did have Jordon, but I needed to tell him everything. He deserved to know, but I was afraid, if he knew the truth will he still want me, or will he think that I am a whore. I sure hoped not.

I wasn’t realizing where we were going when Jordon stopped me. His arm was still around my waist and I loved the warmth it was giving me.

"Do you mind if we miss school for today?" His voice was very careful, and it made me smile.

"Not if you are planning to take me somewhere."

He grinned. Without a word, he pulled his arm away from my waist, and held my hand. "Let’s go."

Once we were in the car, he released my hand, and I was already missing his warmth.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"You will see." His eyes were still on the road, but I could still see him smiling.

"Is it like the last time?" I asked still remembering his beautiful voice singing the song for me. That was probably the best time of my life. No one had ever done that for me, and it was really special. I smiled again.

He looked at me, and smiled. "Not like the last time, but I hope you are going to like this."

"I think I will," I assured him. Whatever he had in mind for me, I would like it. He knew me so well that everything he planned will be outstanding.

We drove in a comfortable, friendly silence. I was thinking about him, and there was a smile in my face.

It was as if my feelings for him always kept on growing. I was so happy to be with him, and I realized that I had never felt this way around anyone else. Not even Tom. I thought I loved Tom, but my feelings for Jordon outnumbered it all. I couldn’t believe what I was thinking. This was really scary. I had to tell him the whole thing; otherwise I don’t think I can make it.

Jordon parked the car, and I hadn’t realized where we were. I looked around but I couldn’t see anything. I could only say that it looked like a good place to hike. Were we here for hiking?

He slowly opened the door for me, but I just looked at him confused. I probably overestimated him. I didn’t know me as much as I thought he did.

"I don’t hike," my voice was so small that Jordon started laughing.

"I know." He managed to say. "I just want to show you something, and you don’t have to walk much. We have to walk for only 5 minutes or less."

"You sure I can make it?" I was really clumsy, and it was going to be really embarrassing even if it was only for 5 minutes.

"And if you can’t, I will carry you." He smiled wickedly.

"No thanks. I think I can make it on my own." I took the hand that he had offered me, and we started walking. I walked really slowly, but he was still beside me without complaining. Even with my slow steps, it only took us 6 minutes to reach there.

"Here we are," he announced. I looked at him questioningly, and he motioned for me to turn around. I did as he said.

Before me was a beautiful water fall. I was surprised that I hadn’t heard the sound of the rushing water before, or the birds. I was so engrossed in my own little planet, but now I could hardly believe what I was seeing. The sight was just breathtaking. Somehow the water looked like it was glowing, and it was so beautiful. The water fall wasn’t that big or I would have been scared. It was pretty small, but very beautiful.

I turned to face Jordon, and found him looking at me. By seeing his dark eyes eyeing my every move, I did the most unexpected and unbelievable thing. I blushed. I hadn’t blushed ever since I had been with Tom, and now I was blushing. I just couldn’t help it. I looked away from him, but he put his hand on my cheek, and I looked up at him. He was looking at me with a really tender expression. He looked below at my lips, and I blushed again. He leaned in close, giving me a chance to pull away if I wanted to, but I couldn’t think straight. Gently, and very tenderly, he kissed me. I closed my eyes, and let my emotions over power me. I put my finger in his soft hair and returned his kiss. He held me tightly and his kisses started being more intense. I was returning his passion with some of my own, and it all surprised me.

As much as I hated to pull away, I had to. He seemed so reluctant to pull away, and it made me smile. Did he like being with me as much as I did? He was about to kiss ne again, but I put my finger in his lip to stop him. He groaned, and I chuckled. How can I explain it to him that I wanted him as much as he wanted me? I probably wanted him more than he wanted me. I practically needed him.

"Not now," My voice was filled with desire even as I tried to stop myself, and that drew a smile in his face. I wasn’t smiling, and he seemed concerned.

"You okay?" His arms were still wrapped around me, but I pulled them away.

"I need to tell you something," I confessed.

"You don’t have to tell me anything if you don’t want to." I looked at him. Though he seemed curious as to what I wanted to tell him, he didn’t want to push me.

"I think you should know this," I said before sitting in the rock and turning my gaze to the flowing water.

He sat beside me, making sure to put some distance between us, which he knew I needed.

I closed my eyes, and everything just came back to me. When I opened my eyes, he was looking at me, waiting. He was patient as ever. "You know Tom, the guy who-"

"I know."

"Well, he was my ex, and also my very first boyfriend," first boyfriend, first kiss, first love and everything that came after that…. "Well, I used to love him and……" I started saying everything in one long sentence. I told him how and why I gave him everything, and what it did to me. I was so hurt, and the memory just refreshed itself. I started crying. Without caring about the distance to give me some space, Jordon instantly wrapped his arms around me, and I pressed myself in his chest.

"I know I am so stupid. I really didn’t need to do all that just to keep him with me. If he really did love me, he would have just stayed with me. And I-" I couldn’t go on, and I started crying again. His shirt was covered with my tears but he didn’t mind, and it felt really good to tell him everything. "But I did love him, or I thought I did. I tried to change myself for him, but it still didn’t work. He was never mine. He didn’t belong with me." I sobbed hardly, and the stream of tears never seemed to stop flowing.

I pulled away from him, and asked, "Do you hate me now?" I was afraid to even look at him. Bur before he could respond, I interrupted. "After the break up, things went really bad. I did a really awful thing. I started making out with other random guys. I am sorry. I had really wanted a change, and I wanted Tom to notice me. He had a girlfriend the very next day and I wanted to show him that I was better without him, but I wasn’t."

Jordon slowly lifted my chin so that he could look into my eyes. "Grace, listen to me very carefully. You don’t need to change yourself to get some guy who doesn’t even deserve you. You are beautiful, and he was blind not to see that before. He doesn’t deserve this," He slowly wiped my tears away and I just started at him. His dark eyes were looking right through me, and I could only look into his piercing gaze. His expression was so sincere, and I found myself believing him. "He is not worth all this."

I wrapped my arms around him, and hugged him. I wasn’t sure what to say to him, and I didn’t know what to do. I started crying again, and I felt him holding me the whole time, and crying with me. For the first time in my entire life, I felt loved.