Love Lies: Chapter One

We were just coming back from that terrible party...And I could feel my head throb form all the music they put, and the screaming of girls being thrown in pools. Can you think someone would have the guts to do that in front of their parents? Of course not it's just that they were drunk.

I was in the car with Lucas my boyfriend, but soon to be ex. At the party I found him making out with our math teacher daughter. What he didn't know was that I had seen him on my way to the bathroom. As we came to my house it started to drizzle. I got out without waiting for him to open my door. As he came to my side I grabbed him around the neck and kissed him one last time.

We had been going out for two years now. And think of what an ass whole he is. Today was our two-year anniversary.... He responded in a way that made me rethink my plan. But no, I was not getting hurt again.

I had opened myself up to him, trusted him. It was over. Just a useless rag to him as all my friend s had told me. All the times he said he loved me...those were lies...all lies.

Then I said those three words that would tear me apart.
"We are done"...

He looked down into my deep blue eyes and i could see he was confused.

"What do you mean".

"I saw you and I can't get hurt again. Like the poet, Love... When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I died. When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore. When I said always, I meant until time ended. When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl. When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you...." then as I finished the quote I let go of him...forever.

My tears were running down my pink checks as the rain got harder. The drops felt as bricks hammering on my head. This was it...the finale kiss on my lips, the finale love for my heart.

"What are you talking about...I love you" he said.

I looked into his eyes but I say nothing but sadness." I saw you Lucas...kissing Marie. Why?"

"What no it was a dare I didn't want to tell you...no please let me explain...I love you."

He knew those were my favorite words but he miss used them. They were lies all lies. Lies for love!

"Well saying the truth is the first step towards love and in those three word Lucas their isn't any truth." It killed me when I thought of the rumor I chose not to hear of him and Marie. But it was true. I was a rag that was now not able to be used anymore. So he did love two women. He did have sex with her because I hadn't. Nice!

"Lucas I don't want to talk about it you just keep hurting me why believes you now? Tell why!"

"Because I'm not lying.... Please listen to me Melanie. Mel?"

"So you want to tell me in this freezing rain that you didn't make love with Marie two night ago. And look me in my eyes when you do".
I was crying uncontrollably. Each word was a knives in my back.

From the corner of my eye I say the curtain twitch. It was probably my little 12-year-old sister worrying for me. "Listen I have to go". As I turned he said what would make my nightmare begin.

"I love you and you said no when I asked. And well Marie...."

"Marie didn't mind being used while you waited for me to have love with you?" This was too much for a 17-year-old girl.

"No she didn't...please I'm so sorry...it was once and I was drunk." I turned around to see his eyes plead. I loved him to but never had the gut to say those words out loud. Never directly. I got up on my tippy toes and kissed his lips softly for the last time.

"You were my first love, Lucas".

He bent down and kissed my forehead and my check catching a dropping tear.

I turned on my heels and ran into the house. By then I was dripping wet for head to toe. Crying my heart out and sobbing my life into threads. My mom was at the entrance with my sister ready to talk to me. But I ignored them and ran up the stairs. Locking my self in my room, I cried for hours. I could hear my mom outside my door calling my name. After a while she left to tend to my sister and left me to look at my dead father picture as he smiled reassuringly at me.

That tender smile reminded me why I loved Lucas. He had stopped being a played for me and had quit smoking and drinking till last week. He said they were just beers but these were all lies of love. The I heard a vibration in my back pocket. I pulled my phone out and opened the text. Tear came to my eyes as I saw these goodbyes...

Form: Lucas

Tears may dry, years may fly, but my love for you will never die...