Lonely Hearts - Chapter Three
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Samantha's P.O.V.
"David please!" I shouted with tears flowing non stop from my eyes.
He pulled me by the hands and I could feel his body close to mines now. I could feel his breath on my shoulders. I felt weak. I forgot about my zippers that I started to undo before I opened the door for him. my back was now against his chest. He held my hand with one hand and the other hand he held my waist.
"Sam, please I can;t take this anymore." He said emotionally.
"I turned around and I hugged him and as tears ran down my face I could feel his shirt soaked as it did.
"David, I missed you so much,"I said. "I just couldn't handle being around you after what happened, after the abortion.
We both sat down on the bed of the hotel room.
"Sam, you are not to blame for what happened, I was there too remember."David said.
------------memory trail backlog----------------
David and I knew each other way before college. We went to the same kindergarten, and the same high school. I had always loved David, he was my first and last. After graduation in high school David and I both applied to the same college with the intention of seeing and spending time with each other all through our college years. After both of us got accepted into St Thomas University, we applied for housing apartment near
It was three weeks that I enjoyed. We spent almost every second of the day together, times when we weren't together we both had different classes and other study sessions.
It all happened one rainy day... Classes were all canceled and David and I were stock in his apartment all day together. I could remember we making out for most of the day..this was one week into school. His roommate was out and we had his apartment all to ourselves.
He held me close to him and I could feel that I didn't had the urge to stop where this was leading. I could feel the kisses turning into sucking gasps on my neck and my shoulders. I could remember his hands touching me in places he never did. I always knew that David and I would some day reach here, and I always tried to prepare my self for it but when you are in the act, you cannot think straight. You just want to go on and on.
I was scared..this was my first time and so was his. We both were nervous. After minutes of kissing my lips I remembered he ask me, "Are you ok, do you want to stop." I held his face in my hands and I said to him, David I love you and I trust you, I want to do this with you and no one else. I remember he going into his wallet and taking out this black packet and he told me he had protection..
I could remember his hands sliding beside my body, and I started to breathe fast and I pivoted my body towards his. He started undoing my buttons and before we knew it we both naked in each other's arms.
It hurt and a sound came out from my mouth as quiet as I let it. He kissed me and touched me. It was amazing. We need to use protection.
It was the most amazing night of my life I could remember saying after I left and was back at my own apartment the next day. He called me that whole night asking me if I was ok and how he was happy that he was able to connect with me in that way.
Three weeks later all those happy moments from that night just turned to anger and regret.
I was getting ready for school and I realized that my sense of smell was immensely intense. I could almost taste the bacon that my Nicole were preparing for breakfast. I threw up all over my bedroom floor. I was soo sick that missed school that day to visit the doctor's office. After the doctor examined me and heard all of my symptoms he request that I give him a sample of my urine.
A few minutes after he called me in, and he told me that my test came back and that I was a week pregnant. I was devastated. I was speechless. I could remember m heart racing and I felt as doh I was in a maze for a couple of seconds.
As I left the doctor's office I went back straight to my apartment. I remember me crying non-stop and thinking and thinking how could I do this. I was so stupid, I should have known the signs I didn't even see it and it was right in front of me.
My cell had almost 35 missed calls from David..."David!" I remembered being so angry with him about not being careful.
Nicole went home for the weekend and I was all alone.
"Knock..knock!" someone knocked on the door. I wasn't in the mood so I just ignored it and didn't moved an inch.
"Sam! you there?" David was standing outside calling.
I opened the door and I lead him in.
David's P.O.V.
What is wrong with her I thought to myself, she ignored my calls all day and she was hesitant to let me in.
As I walked in the room I could see that she was crying continuously for a while. I approached her as she lead me in and she began to cry and step back.
She ran in her room and shot the door.
"Sam, what's going on? I said as she sobbed in the room.
"David..David.."she said like she was trying to tell me something.
"what is it baby?" I said.
I opened the door and she was on the ground near the door sitting with her head resting on her knees that she propped up.
I quickly sat next to her and held her in my arms. She cried and cried and I wondered what can make her so upset.
As she stopped crying for a while we both sat in the dark of her room and she began to tell me about her day.
I could remember she telling me..."David I'm pregnant."
I was overwhelmed with fear and excitement that I paused for a while then I said are you sure.
"David I've been to the doctor's office and I am sure." "What are we going to do David, I'm not ready to be a mother, I have to finish my degree and my parents what are they going to say." "What are you thinking David," she said.
"Sam, don't worry we will get through this." I said without a doubt what we were going to do.
"How do you mean we will get through this David?" "How do you feel?"
"Sam, I don't know what to think..."I said.
That night David laid nect to me and we slept away in silence, one week after we both decided to go through with the abortion. We both we devastated, it affected our relationship immensely.
-------------------------- back to present ---------------------------------
Samantha's P.O.V.
"David I know you were there too, is just that... I couldn't live with myself for what I did, I couldn't stand to be around you because every time I saw you it reminded me of the baby that I killed."
"Sam, I was there too..I made the decision too to go through with it." he said.
"I was unfair and evil David, I..I.. should have given our baby a chance to life, it wasn't like we were not capable of doing it. I mean we were successful in every other thing we did, surely sleeping together..."
Giggles* giggles* David laughed as I said that. "It already happened Sam, we need to move on, and yes I regretted it. After you shot me out I realized that I couldn't stand to be around u anymore as well, because you remind me of that day." said David.
"D we were capable of taking care of our baby and we chose not too... we chose to go to school to please us and our parents, we never not for once considered our baby."
"Yes, Sam.. Sam..you know it felt like forever without you..it missed you called me D," "I love you Sam, I can't stand to be without you ever again.
" I love you too D, I was dying slowly without you, what are we going to do know D, how will we ever overcome this?"
"I don't know Sam but we will figure it out."David said as he held me in his arms.
"David please!" I shouted with tears flowing non stop from my eyes.
He pulled me by the hands and I could feel his body close to mines now. I could feel his breath on my shoulders. I felt weak. I forgot about my zippers that I started to undo before I opened the door for him. my back was now against his chest. He held my hand with one hand and the other hand he held my waist.
"Sam, please I can;t take this anymore." He said emotionally.
"I turned around and I hugged him and as tears ran down my face I could feel his shirt soaked as it did.
"David, I missed you so much,"I said. "I just couldn't handle being around you after what happened, after the abortion.
We both sat down on the bed of the hotel room.
"Sam, you are not to blame for what happened, I was there too remember."David said.
------------memory trail backlog----------------
David and I knew each other way before college. We went to the same kindergarten, and the same high school. I had always loved David, he was my first and last. After graduation in high school David and I both applied to the same college with the intention of seeing and spending time with each other all through our college years. After both of us got accepted into St Thomas University, we applied for housing apartment near
It was three weeks that I enjoyed. We spent almost every second of the day together, times when we weren't together we both had different classes and other study sessions.
It all happened one rainy day... Classes were all canceled and David and I were stock in his apartment all day together. I could remember we making out for most of the day..this was one week into school. His roommate was out and we had his apartment all to ourselves.
He held me close to him and I could feel that I didn't had the urge to stop where this was leading. I could feel the kisses turning into sucking gasps on my neck and my shoulders. I could remember his hands touching me in places he never did. I always knew that David and I would some day reach here, and I always tried to prepare my self for it but when you are in the act, you cannot think straight. You just want to go on and on.
I was scared..this was my first time and so was his. We both were nervous. After minutes of kissing my lips I remembered he ask me, "Are you ok, do you want to stop." I held his face in my hands and I said to him, David I love you and I trust you, I want to do this with you and no one else. I remember he going into his wallet and taking out this black packet and he told me he had protection..
I could remember his hands sliding beside my body, and I started to breathe fast and I pivoted my body towards his. He started undoing my buttons and before we knew it we both naked in each other's arms.
It hurt and a sound came out from my mouth as quiet as I let it. He kissed me and touched me. It was amazing. We need to use protection.
It was the most amazing night of my life I could remember saying after I left and was back at my own apartment the next day. He called me that whole night asking me if I was ok and how he was happy that he was able to connect with me in that way.
Three weeks later all those happy moments from that night just turned to anger and regret.
I was getting ready for school and I realized that my sense of smell was immensely intense. I could almost taste the bacon that my Nicole were preparing for breakfast. I threw up all over my bedroom floor. I was soo sick that missed school that day to visit the doctor's office. After the doctor examined me and heard all of my symptoms he request that I give him a sample of my urine.
A few minutes after he called me in, and he told me that my test came back and that I was a week pregnant. I was devastated. I was speechless. I could remember m heart racing and I felt as doh I was in a maze for a couple of seconds.
As I left the doctor's office I went back straight to my apartment. I remember me crying non-stop and thinking and thinking how could I do this. I was so stupid, I should have known the signs I didn't even see it and it was right in front of me.
My cell had almost 35 missed calls from David..."David!" I remembered being so angry with him about not being careful.
Nicole went home for the weekend and I was all alone.
"Knock..knock!" someone knocked on the door. I wasn't in the mood so I just ignored it and didn't moved an inch.
"Sam! you there?" David was standing outside calling.
I opened the door and I lead him in.
David's P.O.V.
What is wrong with her I thought to myself, she ignored my calls all day and she was hesitant to let me in.
As I walked in the room I could see that she was crying continuously for a while. I approached her as she lead me in and she began to cry and step back.
She ran in her room and shot the door.
"Sam, what's going on? I said as she sobbed in the room.
"David..David.."she said like she was trying to tell me something.
"what is it baby?" I said.
I opened the door and she was on the ground near the door sitting with her head resting on her knees that she propped up.
I quickly sat next to her and held her in my arms. She cried and cried and I wondered what can make her so upset.
As she stopped crying for a while we both sat in the dark of her room and she began to tell me about her day.
I could remember she telling me..."David I'm pregnant."
I was overwhelmed with fear and excitement that I paused for a while then I said are you sure.
"David I've been to the doctor's office and I am sure." "What are we going to do David, I'm not ready to be a mother, I have to finish my degree and my parents what are they going to say." "What are you thinking David," she said.
"Sam, don't worry we will get through this." I said without a doubt what we were going to do.
"How do you mean we will get through this David?" "How do you feel?"
"Sam, I don't know what to think..."I said.
That night David laid nect to me and we slept away in silence, one week after we both decided to go through with the abortion. We both we devastated, it affected our relationship immensely.
-------------------------- back to present ---------------------------------
Samantha's P.O.V.
"David I know you were there too, is just that... I couldn't live with myself for what I did, I couldn't stand to be around you because every time I saw you it reminded me of the baby that I killed."
"Sam, I was there too..I made the decision too to go through with it." he said.
"I was unfair and evil David, I..I.. should have given our baby a chance to life, it wasn't like we were not capable of doing it. I mean we were successful in every other thing we did, surely sleeping together..."
Giggles* giggles* David laughed as I said that. "It already happened Sam, we need to move on, and yes I regretted it. After you shot me out I realized that I couldn't stand to be around u anymore as well, because you remind me of that day." said David.
"D we were capable of taking care of our baby and we chose not too... we chose to go to school to please us and our parents, we never not for once considered our baby."
"Yes, Sam.. Sam..you know it felt like forever without you..it missed you called me D," "I love you Sam, I can't stand to be without you ever again.
" I love you too D, I was dying slowly without you, what are we going to do know D, how will we ever overcome this?"
"I don't know Sam but we will figure it out."David said as he held me in his arms.
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