Living Again

Reawakened.

Not from a nightmare;
No - it was much
Worse than that.

It was apathy.

My light has faded,
My passion jaded,
My soul wearied
From years gone past.

The wrongs
I sought to right;
The activism
I pursued blind –
All these seem
So faraway now.

I exist,
One day fading
Into another.
No conflict.
No worries.
No cares.
No joy either;
I have gone numb.

Then, like a beacon
After an endless flight –
There you were.

Where you had always been.

Steadfast, true:
My soulmate
My partner
My friend
The only man
I ever knew.

I was blinded.
Captivated.
Breathless, agonized.
All these years
You were just here
How could I have
Been so blind.

So now, I dream once more.
Life seems suddenly new.
I see light, and colors:
Swirling, unending
Like echoes out of the blue.

I greet each morning
With a smile, and end each day
With a laugh. And passion -
I have rediscovered that too.

I now love more fully.
Almost like a child,
I am giddy:

I know who I am,
And what I want,
And how to go
About getting that.

I am older now.
And wiser.
Yet I am freer
Than I have ever been.

And much
More beautiful
Than I realized.

And I am happy.
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