Life is Fragile.....
Angela has had a rough life losing the one person she cared the most about, but through all her heartache, there is always that someone who manages to get through the built up walls
In life you never really know, what's going to come around the next corner you can be driving along the freeway and CRASH!!! You could be sitting at home having dinner with the family and get a home invader and get shot. You just will never, when your time is up or even if you life gets cut short. How are you supposed to live life knowing that at any moment it could all just end, who's going to remember me, would anyone miss me if I were gone. Life is fragile.....
For me that turning point where I knew that I did not live my life to the fullest, that I didn't do everything that I wanted to do. 06 April 2005 that's the day when my life was turned upside down and everything I thought mattered really didn't matter anymore.
"Wake up sleepy head" opening my eyes to look at the one person that meant the world to me. Nathan with his sandy blond hair and blue eyes. Yes he was a cliche the typical blond hair and blue eye's but he was my cliche.
"How do you wake up with so much energy, it's not normal Nathan" I couldn't help but smile he was running around grabbing his gear and throwing my swimsuit at me, all in a few minutes he was done.
"Angela its Saturday, how can you not wake up with energy?"
"Yes Saturday Nathan day for me to sleep in and relax", grabbing my pillow and putting it over my head, trying to ignore him.
"Ok if you're not going to get up then I'm out of here, I'm meeting the boys at Eagle Peak"
"Fine I'll meet you there"
How was I supposed to know any better, I keep going back to that day over and over, if I had just made him wait for me, if I had made him get back into bed. He would still be here with me.
God I better get up, Nathan is going to kill me if I sleep the whole morning. Getting out of bed and throwing the covers in the corner. I look around trying to find my swimsuit. Ha there it is. Ok swimsuit, towels, snacks, hat, glasses, bag. Got it all now it's time to head off.
As I'm driving to Eagle Peak I can't help but smile to myself, I had the best relationship with Nathan, we had been together for five years come tomorrow. We knew everything about each other and I loved more and more every day, almost every day was like the first time we met he always made me feel like I was the only one for him and that there would never be anyone else for him, just like there would never be another guy out there for me. Nathan and I were perfect together and nothing would break us.
Life was great. Finding a spot to park was a nightmare I finally got one about 20 minutes from the beach. If I had just come with Nathan I could have got a spot closer, on the other hand I would not have been able to sleep so no upside to either option really.
As I got closer to I noticed a large crowd in the middle of the beach and paramedics running between the people. That's when I saw it the trail of blood on the sand there was so much blood, on the sand in the water. O my god there must have been a shark attack god that poor person they've lost so much blood.
I keep reliving it that one single day over and over; I just can get it out of my head. My Nathan, my love my Nathan.
"O my God Angela!" I look around trying to find the person who said my name and there he is Justin, Nathans best friend.
"Hey Justin what happened here, have you seed Nat...." before I even finish my sentence Justin just bought knocks me over, in his bone breaking hug I try pull way.
"Wow boy you can let go I'm losing oxygen here." I laugh trying to pull away.
"Angela I'm sorry I'm so sorry, it happened so fast we didn't know what was going on.." I interrupt him before he can go on
"Wait what you are talking about Justin!" I can see the pain in his eyes, he looks like he's been crying, he's got blood on him, in fact he's covered in blood.
It hits me, Nathan
"Angela wait don't..."
I don't think I just run pushing and shoving people out of the way trying to get to the center. Before I can center, someone grabs me around the waist.
"Let me go! Nathan! I'm here Nathan I'm here!" I yell at him,
"Angela please you don't want to see him, he's in a bad way" Justin try's to turn me around
But I manage to struggle enough to break free of Justin's hold and that's when I see him my beautiful...
O my God Nathan, he's just laying there covered in blood, a large chunk of his stomach is missing part of his right leg is gone and another peace pissing from his right arm. He looks he looks horrible all I can do is kneel at his head the paramedic looks at me.
"I'm sorry miss but you...."
"He's my fiance " that's all I say I can't look away at him the paramedics are moving around trying to patch him up sticking things into his arms.
"Nathan baby I'm here, Nathan please say something please just say anything" I just keep looking around hopelessly, everyone is just standing there and staring, why can they be useful do something helpful, anything Dimmit , he's bleeding out onto the sand and all they do is stand there.
"Angela they are trying to move him, come on sweet move out of their way" Justin takes my hand and starts to pull me up and out of the way.
That's when I break, my tears just start to run and my chest heaves from me crying so hard.
"OOO MmmmY GOooD, JUSTIN!" I can't stop sobbing and holding on to Justin for dear life,
"Come on let's get in to the car, we'll go straight to the hospital" he leads me to his car and puts me in the passenger side.
"You'll see Angie, he's going to be fine, some war wounds but he'll be fine"
I can't speak I just want to get t o the hospital I just want to see my Nathan, I want him to tell me everything is going to be ok.
For me that turning point where I knew that I did not live my life to the fullest, that I didn't do everything that I wanted to do. 06 April 2005 that's the day when my life was turned upside down and everything I thought mattered really didn't matter anymore.
"Wake up sleepy head" opening my eyes to look at the one person that meant the world to me. Nathan with his sandy blond hair and blue eyes. Yes he was a cliche the typical blond hair and blue eye's but he was my cliche.
"How do you wake up with so much energy, it's not normal Nathan" I couldn't help but smile he was running around grabbing his gear and throwing my swimsuit at me, all in a few minutes he was done.
"Angela its Saturday, how can you not wake up with energy?"
"Yes Saturday Nathan day for me to sleep in and relax", grabbing my pillow and putting it over my head, trying to ignore him.
"Ok if you're not going to get up then I'm out of here, I'm meeting the boys at Eagle Peak"
"Fine I'll meet you there"
How was I supposed to know any better, I keep going back to that day over and over, if I had just made him wait for me, if I had made him get back into bed. He would still be here with me.
God I better get up, Nathan is going to kill me if I sleep the whole morning. Getting out of bed and throwing the covers in the corner. I look around trying to find my swimsuit. Ha there it is. Ok swimsuit, towels, snacks, hat, glasses, bag. Got it all now it's time to head off.
As I'm driving to Eagle Peak I can't help but smile to myself, I had the best relationship with Nathan, we had been together for five years come tomorrow. We knew everything about each other and I loved more and more every day, almost every day was like the first time we met he always made me feel like I was the only one for him and that there would never be anyone else for him, just like there would never be another guy out there for me. Nathan and I were perfect together and nothing would break us.
Life was great. Finding a spot to park was a nightmare I finally got one about 20 minutes from the beach. If I had just come with Nathan I could have got a spot closer, on the other hand I would not have been able to sleep so no upside to either option really.
As I got closer to I noticed a large crowd in the middle of the beach and paramedics running between the people. That's when I saw it the trail of blood on the sand there was so much blood, on the sand in the water. O my god there must have been a shark attack god that poor person they've lost so much blood.
I keep reliving it that one single day over and over; I just can get it out of my head. My Nathan, my love my Nathan.
"O my God Angela!" I look around trying to find the person who said my name and there he is Justin, Nathans best friend.
"Hey Justin what happened here, have you seed Nat...." before I even finish my sentence Justin just bought knocks me over, in his bone breaking hug I try pull way.
"Wow boy you can let go I'm losing oxygen here." I laugh trying to pull away.
"Angela I'm sorry I'm so sorry, it happened so fast we didn't know what was going on.." I interrupt him before he can go on
"Wait what you are talking about Justin!" I can see the pain in his eyes, he looks like he's been crying, he's got blood on him, in fact he's covered in blood.
It hits me, Nathan
"Angela wait don't..."
I don't think I just run pushing and shoving people out of the way trying to get to the center. Before I can center, someone grabs me around the waist.
"Let me go! Nathan! I'm here Nathan I'm here!" I yell at him,
"Angela please you don't want to see him, he's in a bad way" Justin try's to turn me around
But I manage to struggle enough to break free of Justin's hold and that's when I see him my beautiful...
O my God Nathan, he's just laying there covered in blood, a large chunk of his stomach is missing part of his right leg is gone and another peace pissing from his right arm. He looks he looks horrible all I can do is kneel at his head the paramedic looks at me.
"I'm sorry miss but you...."
"He's my fiance " that's all I say I can't look away at him the paramedics are moving around trying to patch him up sticking things into his arms.
"Nathan baby I'm here, Nathan please say something please just say anything" I just keep looking around hopelessly, everyone is just standing there and staring, why can they be useful do something helpful, anything Dimmit , he's bleeding out onto the sand and all they do is stand there.
"Angela they are trying to move him, come on sweet move out of their way" Justin takes my hand and starts to pull me up and out of the way.
That's when I break, my tears just start to run and my chest heaves from me crying so hard.
"OOO MmmmY GOooD, JUSTIN!" I can't stop sobbing and holding on to Justin for dear life,
"Come on let's get in to the car, we'll go straight to the hospital" he leads me to his car and puts me in the passenger side.
"You'll see Angie, he's going to be fine, some war wounds but he'll be fine"
I can't speak I just want to get t o the hospital I just want to see my Nathan, I want him to tell me everything is going to be ok.
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