Life is a Roller Coaster

Life is one big,
Huge,
Scary
Roller Coaster.
No matter how many times you ride
You are never ready
For the coming turns
And at times dead ends.
Life is never predictable
Because when you think
One thing is going to happen
Something completely different
Something you’d never expect happens.
When you think that you are
The healthiest and happiest person
Life hits you.
I was that happy healthy person
But too soon did i realize
That I wasn’t.
I thought that my life was
The greatest.
That nothing could ever hurt me
That no matter what happens ill
Always be so happy.
But all this changed in
What seemed like a day.
It starts when you lose a family member.
For me it was my aunt.
That didn’t affect me too much
But then I had a friend die
and another friend in a coma.
The next year I had a friend
Do the unthinkable
And commit suicide.
That really affected me but
I choose to move on
And not dwell on the past.
Then the next year
My friend got in to
a really bad car accident.
He died that day
on the side of the road.
All because he was not
Doing the speed limit
And his fate
Rested in his own hands.
But now I sit here
And wonder why.
Why do I still live
Why and I alive when my friends
Are all no longer living
Except in my memories.
I am constantly in a fight
Not physically
But mentally with myself.
There are many reasons
That I should still
Be here on this earth.
But in my mind
I can come up with
Many more reasons
Why it would be better
If I were not here
And six feet down.
I am constantly battling
With myself to pick up my
Little silver friend.
Whom beckons to me
Saying one slice
won’t hurt just try it.
Come on.
One nice cold slice.
To see all the blood squirt out.
But when I come close to leaving
This cold cruel world.
I am pulled out of the
Darkness remembering
That those I love
and the ones that love me
Will miss me.
How could I do that to them
And my Answer is very easily.
But today I decided to live
Just another day.
I love life and I hope
That I don’t make that last choice
The one that will be final.
The one that I will never
Be able to undo.
So I will live life’s
Crazy roller coaster
Till that day that my friend
Beckons to me.
That one last slice will be it all.