Letting Go is Never Easy - Part 4
Love Lost.
Calvin you need to stop this car, I want to go home "I screamed". I even tried the door but it was locked, he drove without even looking at him, with a cigarette on his fingers, he took a long drag and said "Can you give it a rest babe, I am taking you some place we can talk Please".
I was furious, it was in the middle of the night. I looked at my phone. Who could I call to rescue me. All my sisters where asleep, my mum was far in the other city, I couldn't just call her in the middle of the night. It was helpless. I made a sigh and could feel tears building up in my eyes. And finally the car stopped. In front of his farm yard. For heaven sake have we been driving through the night for an hour and a half out of the city to his farm yard.
He opened the gate and drove in, parked the car and asked me to get in. I refused. I stayed in the car and saw him open the house door, switch on the lights and disappear inside. I was certain there was no one except us here because his parents where at their home in the city. So he used his own set of keys to open the house. How so appropriate. Here I was stuck with him far from every one.
I started crying, why was he doing this to me, I am not the one who lied. he is the one not me. I closed my eyes helpless. As I was drifting of to sleep in the car seat, I heard my door open, he picked me up and closed the car door, locked it and entered the house. I was in no mood to argue or talk to him. he went to his room, the room where we have great memories. And laid me on the bed and tucked me in. I pretended I was asleep so that I could not talk to him. I heard his footsteps as he went out of the room. I quickly text-ed Trish.. "the idiot took me to his farm yard, not speaking to him. Talk 2 you 2mrw" read the text. He came back in, called my name, an murmured something as he got into bed with me. I didn't dare move, I lay they pretending to be in deep sleep. He moved in closer, with his arm around me and said "I am sorry Alexis, I deeply am" I ignored this and forced myself to sleep.
When I finally woke up, it was morning, I guess I must have drifted to sleep. He was still asleep. And I was still fully dressed. I went to his private bathroom, locked the door behind me and open the shower. I undressed and got into the shower, letting the warm water run through my body. I heard a knock, I ignored it. "since when do you shower without me" he said behind the locked door.
"Since the day you started lying to me" I responded. he must have given up because I heard the bedroom door open. I took right about 30 minutes in the shower, because I was busy arguing with myself as I showered.
When I was finally done, I closed the tap. Took one of his clean towels. and dried myself. Thank God I had my hair plaited I wasn't in no mood to comb it. I applied his skin moisturizer and dressed. He was not in his room. I went looking for him through the house for I was ready to face up to him and tell him off, I found him in the kitchen, all cleaned up preparing breakfast. Bacon, pork sausage, scrambled eggs and toast. With the food smelling, I finally noticed I was starved. But that didn't stop me from screaming at him.
I don't remember exactly what I said to him, what I do remember is that I felt better after taking it all out on him. He just stood there, looking at me, with hurt in his eyes. And looked the other way as he dished for us. He gave me my plate and asked me to seat and eat. I followed suit, ate silently. The food was delicious. Almost forgot how he knows how to make a mean breakfast.
I was furious, it was in the middle of the night. I looked at my phone. Who could I call to rescue me. All my sisters where asleep, my mum was far in the other city, I couldn't just call her in the middle of the night. It was helpless. I made a sigh and could feel tears building up in my eyes. And finally the car stopped. In front of his farm yard. For heaven sake have we been driving through the night for an hour and a half out of the city to his farm yard.
He opened the gate and drove in, parked the car and asked me to get in. I refused. I stayed in the car and saw him open the house door, switch on the lights and disappear inside. I was certain there was no one except us here because his parents where at their home in the city. So he used his own set of keys to open the house. How so appropriate. Here I was stuck with him far from every one.
I started crying, why was he doing this to me, I am not the one who lied. he is the one not me. I closed my eyes helpless. As I was drifting of to sleep in the car seat, I heard my door open, he picked me up and closed the car door, locked it and entered the house. I was in no mood to argue or talk to him. he went to his room, the room where we have great memories. And laid me on the bed and tucked me in. I pretended I was asleep so that I could not talk to him. I heard his footsteps as he went out of the room. I quickly text-ed Trish.. "the idiot took me to his farm yard, not speaking to him. Talk 2 you 2mrw" read the text. He came back in, called my name, an murmured something as he got into bed with me. I didn't dare move, I lay they pretending to be in deep sleep. He moved in closer, with his arm around me and said "I am sorry Alexis, I deeply am" I ignored this and forced myself to sleep.
When I finally woke up, it was morning, I guess I must have drifted to sleep. He was still asleep. And I was still fully dressed. I went to his private bathroom, locked the door behind me and open the shower. I undressed and got into the shower, letting the warm water run through my body. I heard a knock, I ignored it. "since when do you shower without me" he said behind the locked door.
"Since the day you started lying to me" I responded. he must have given up because I heard the bedroom door open. I took right about 30 minutes in the shower, because I was busy arguing with myself as I showered.
When I was finally done, I closed the tap. Took one of his clean towels. and dried myself. Thank God I had my hair plaited I wasn't in no mood to comb it. I applied his skin moisturizer and dressed. He was not in his room. I went looking for him through the house for I was ready to face up to him and tell him off, I found him in the kitchen, all cleaned up preparing breakfast. Bacon, pork sausage, scrambled eggs and toast. With the food smelling, I finally noticed I was starved. But that didn't stop me from screaming at him.
I don't remember exactly what I said to him, what I do remember is that I felt better after taking it all out on him. He just stood there, looking at me, with hurt in his eyes. And looked the other way as he dished for us. He gave me my plate and asked me to seat and eat. I followed suit, ate silently. The food was delicious. Almost forgot how he knows how to make a mean breakfast.
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