Letter To My Mother

You called us your angels.
You took us everywhere with you.
Now you are our angel watching from up above.
I was five she was two.
Two little innocent girls without their mother.
I thought you were coming back.
I asked everyone where you went.
Aunt Kim said you were dead and you weren't coming back.
I was so angry I wanted my mother.
Daddy came and got me and my sweet little sister was left behind.
I told God I would gladly take your place just so she could have more time with you.
I felt so guilty.
I had five long years with you when she only had two short years with you.
I asked God what I had done to deserve this pain, I got no answer.
Later on I was told you could have been saved.
I know blame the doctor that wouldn't take a look.
Who said you only said you had pain for the attention.
My mother, I love you.
I miss you so.
I'm sure sister does too.
It's been twelve long years without you.
I didn't get to say my goodbyes.
I have my dreams that you’re still alive.
I hate the disease that took you away.
You were only twenty-four.
I love you no matter what.
I will keep little sister on your side.
I won't let others tell her lies.
I'll watch out for her like big sisters should.
Mother, there are times when I need your arms around me.
I look at your picture and wonder why.
But just know this that I love you so and I will always be your child.
These are just a few things that I wish I could write to you if I could send a letter to heaven.