Letter To Dad, Posthumously; A Remembrance

Dear dad,
How are you?
Its’ five years since you are absent in my life.
You breathed your last, ripe old.
Yet, I feel the vacuum.
I miss you very much.
I was the apple of your eye.
Your last days, the worst of your life were spent with me.
I do not know whether to be happy or sad.
You were a Parkinson’s patient. You suffered a lot.
I couldn’t take in your sufferings.
You were a very cooperative patient.
Only solace was that your end was peaceful.
You were a wonderful father; always with daughters.
Both sisters basked in your love’s warmth.
You were unfair to your sons; it was wrong; especially to your eldest son.
You behaved worst than a step father.
Till date, I do not know the reason.
He was your eldest child.
How could you be so cruel to him?
I am unable to forgive you.
You treated me like a princess.
Dad, I couldn’t have asked for more.
I owe my wonderful life to you.
But for you, I wouldn’t be where I am.
I thank you for giving me an exemplary husband and family.
Writing this, I also feel guilty.
Your sons received a raw deal from you.
Why? Why? Why?
I had asked you, umpteen times.
You denied any such behavior.
It was not hearsay; I was a witness.
You adored me; everything about me was special to you.
You showered love on me.
Within limited means, you tried to fulfill my demands.
Education, food,…….. you were impartial.
But, love was reserved for me.
Its’ a different story that I was a pet of our family.
They never held your love for me against you.
Why are you a step father to us? This was their grievance.
You disagreed; were you honest to yourself?
Dad, I couldn’t have asked for better.;
You were the best father.
Writing this, I am not very comfortable.
One corner of my heart pains.
Your injustice to my brothers is unforgettable.
Dad, what can I do?
How do I get out of this guilty feeling?
Please send some signal.
I miss you.
I will always feel the sting of your absence.
You are not with me.
My wishes are yours.
Dad, Happy Father’s Day.
Lots of love.
Your beloved daughter.

P.S:
Dad, your elder son has joined the majority.
He left this world with the unfulfilled desire for your love.
Now that he is with you, take care of him; please.