** Leaving The World **

I sit on my bed
Crying real hard
Thinking about the decision I’ve made
The decision to change everyone’s life
And end mine
Life is too f*cked to live
And I don’t want it anymore
Why did god think it was a good idea
To have me made in this mess
To have a best friend not care
She says it straight to my face
To have a guy that used to love you
Leave you for your best friend
And remind you everyday how much he loves her
To have your parents
Tell you to go to a foster home
And maybe ill be happy
No, death will do that
To have a guy that you love
Beat you everyday because he hates you so much
To have a friend that hates you
Month after month
To have another that blames you
For the mistakes you’ve made
With the love ones you’ve had
And the friends that are hurt
To have it pinned on you
When inside your dying
Wilting away and they can’t see
It hurts to have a dog that dying
And failing all your classes
And not becoming anything in life
The only thing you have to look forward to
Is the death that lies ahead
But I’m bringing it closer
To the present
The near future holds the end for me
The end I cause myself
The day I sit at home alone
And stick the knife through my heart
The day I’m dead and gone
No one will care
The day of my funeral
The church will be empty
For no one seems to care
The day I die is the day I’m set free
So please be happy for me