Just Words

My emotions are robotic
And I have no control
No ability to stop it
Not allowing life to take its toll

Whether or not I wanna move forward
I'm going anyway
So kill me now
Or tell me how
To just get over this faze

My heart has lost its batteries
And I'm so cold that I could freeze
I know I'm being mean
Yes, I know I'm being rude
But I am incapable to stop this monster,
That has me in this mood

I've tried my best to conceal it
All this careless spite
I'll rage it towards anyone
But I laugh to say you're still alright

For in a way I don't mean it
Some of the things I say
But all the meanings behind it
Seem to take the illusions away

I'm figuring out my issues
The ones that everyone says I have
But I don't know how this will help me
So how should I put up with that?

My mind can't control it
The things my mouth says
And every time I say something
A tear I want to shed

This animal that's taking control
Really isn't me
But for some strange reason
My mind still sets it free

I'm losing my self-confidence
And my morals are passing by
Soon I'm gonna be so bad
That I'll be unwilling to try

Nothing will be left inside me
From how things are turning out
And sometimes it gets so bad
I just tell myself to shut up and sit down

It's hard for me to do it
But I listen anyway
Cuz when I don't
This list of regrets
Turns my blue skies to gray

From saying everything I think
I'm leaving my soul to die
And soon the fight inside me
Will then have to say good-bye.

I'll be dead before you know it
So why care anyway
For soon I'll be a granite rock
They won't know my name one day

But these are just words, coming from my mouth
Sadly they mean nothing to me...
But so are those
So who Should know
What I'm really thinking