Just Let Me Say (Eternities Mistake)

My body feels cold
I know hope is lost but I can't let go
Please just kill me now
So you can go on.

There is nothing left for me now
That you are gone
I made a mistake that cannot be undone
And now I must go on feeling sorry for myself
Not sorry for myself but sorry for my wrongs.

I should have cared at first
I would have paid attention to what was said
And now it's my fault
My heart is breaking.

I let you fall for another
I let you go but
I am still there
Where this mask of happiness and pride.

All while I die a little more inside
Every time I remember that you are happy with him.
We drifted away and
It's my fault things went array.

But listen to me don't say a word
Let me say "if I could have this time over again
I would have changed
I wouldn't have been so naive
To think that you would be there forever".

I guess it is my fault
I paraded around with pride in my heart
But yet not for the fact that you were mine
But for that I had a girlfriend when others didn't.

But I still believe in my heart
That we will find a way back to one another
That is why I stay and fight.
400,000,0000 people live and die
As one they save the lives of 65,000,0000 in a single decade.

Yet how is it that I can
Ruin the lives of not one but two people
In the space of one day and
I feel sorry for that unborn
That lost it's life
Before it saw its first ray of light
Through those eyes that lit up like stars.

In my heart I hope
We find our way back to each other
That one special person finds the way to the light
I just hope it's not too late
I just hope this isn't eternities mistake.