Its Killing Me Can't You See?

This is how I feel about seeing Carmelo (my nephew) for the 1st time since he was 1 ½.

I know things will never be the way they used to be and maybe that's what is killing me I haven't seen you since you were one and now you're 3 I know in your heart you will remember me but it tears me up inside to know that there's a slight chance you won't remember me!