It Took Some Time
What's it like.
The image that people are used to is not me. The blond hair blue eyes and pale skin. We all struggle with different things and insecurity. African-Americans fit nowhere. I would dream of being something I am not of someone I could never be. Maybe white paint would look good? hair dye? Contacts? Anything!!
The view in the mirror was a disgrace. I wanted to be Rebbecca, Vanessa, Jessica even. What about skinny and tall the model image. How come that blond boy never looked at me was it because fear set in his heart. "Why would I want to be with a BLACK girl" he must have said.
And so I accepted it everything I did. It's who I am who god made me. I don't know why I had to have chosen with this skin but I am. I use to find myself haunting for darker girls. My dad Hispanic and my mom black I had better hair texture than them and a little lighter skin. When I did I would say "oh look your darker than me." it would feel nice to hurt their feelings.
Simple things that haunt me even today. But now I am a freshman in highscool I learned to be who I should be and who I am. I am me I am an African-American dark skin hair down my back short and skinny with hips no breast. I am me! Even though it took some time be. Just for me to see.
The view in the mirror was a disgrace. I wanted to be Rebbecca, Vanessa, Jessica even. What about skinny and tall the model image. How come that blond boy never looked at me was it because fear set in his heart. "Why would I want to be with a BLACK girl" he must have said.
And so I accepted it everything I did. It's who I am who god made me. I don't know why I had to have chosen with this skin but I am. I use to find myself haunting for darker girls. My dad Hispanic and my mom black I had better hair texture than them and a little lighter skin. When I did I would say "oh look your darker than me." it would feel nice to hurt their feelings.
Simple things that haunt me even today. But now I am a freshman in highscool I learned to be who I should be and who I am. I am me I am an African-American dark skin hair down my back short and skinny with hips no breast. I am me! Even though it took some time be. Just for me to see.
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