Isn't It Better To End It All?

Isn't it better to end it all?
When the past turn into ashes,
And the leaves start to fall.
In my very mind my life flashes,
Like lightening across a stormy sky,

I saw myself struggling to stay alive,
To what purpose I don;t know why.
People around me trying to console me,
But can;t they see that they can't help me?
I have already surrendered to myself,

In front of fate on knees I knelt.
I am nothing but a shell,
Existing like a silent bell.
My blood flows out like river out to sea,
My life's end I could barely see.

I am going to end it all,
When the leaves start to fall.
The world will still go on,
Without me as its hearts thorn