Isla's Guys Chapter 13

Ok, today is Wednesday and I have finally decided I will get over Kieran and be happy with Jack. Its best all round for everyone and I do love him. I make love to him so it's obvious, isn't it? He loves me. I love him. So I'm just going to move on and forget about my little crush. (It's called a crush for a reason, have you noticed?) Jack actually did the sweetest thing last night, because he couldn't come out, he sang me a song down the phone to say sorry. What girl doesn't love a guy who serenades her? I quickly drop by unannounced at Jack's house before work as it's on the way.
'Hey Cas.'
'JACK!' She yells upstairs. Jack then comes down the stairs and I instantly notice his battered up face.
'Oh my goodness baby! What happened?' I look at his bruised eye and bloody scars and Jack says 'I'm such a klutz Is. I fell over last night.'
'Oh you poor thing.'
He nods. 'You know me.'
'Well I just popped around to say hey. I hope you feel better. Are you sure you're all right?'
'Yes I'm sure. Don't worry about me.' He leans down and kisses me lightly. 'I'll see you tomorrow ok? I'm going to spoil you rotten.'
'Ah, you don't have to do that.'
'Of course I do Treacle.' I grin and kiss him again.
'Ok, I've really got to dash. I'll see you tomorrow. Have fun with Steve today.'
'Will do. Bye.'

Now I really am running late for work, which is really annoying as that means I will need to have a late lunch break, but I'm hungry already. Fantastic. I work in the clothes store Mango and have such nice work colleagues, but not nice enough to let me off for my lunch break early. So at 1.30pm, I dash down to M&S to grab a sandwich. Whilst picking up my classic chicken sandwich, I feel a hand lay upon my back.
'I knew it was you.' It's Kieran.
'Great.' Absolutely great! I'm trying to get over him, this really isn't what I need.
'How are you feeling?'
'Fine.' He looks puzzled when I say this.
'Really?'
'Yes, really. Why?'
'What about you and Jack?'
'That is none of your business.'
'Stop being so bloody stubborn Isla.' He says seriously. He seems anxious yet angry though, I wonder why?
'Why do you care?'
'You know why.'
'I'm happy with Jack ok?' Now he's angry. 'I'm very happy with Jack, Kieran, so go and be happy with Poppy.'
'When did you last see Jack, Is?'
'This morning, not that it is any of your business. I have to get back to work.'
Kieran looks at me then sighs. 'Can I walk you back to your work?'
'No.'
'Well I am anyway.'
'Why don't you leave me alone?' I can't bear having Kieran near me knowing that I can't have him. Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you but you can never have them?
'The same reason as before. I care about you Is.'
I look into his eyes and smile 'Thank you.'

Kieran walks me back to my work in silence when I stop in my tracks. It can't be. But it is. I do a double take then look at Kieran who has followed my eye line. He knew. In fact, he knew before. His face shows the signs of regret and guilt. Kieran then runs over to Jack and takes a swing at him with his left hand. Why? Well I've just caught my boyfriend making out with another woman. Her hand down his trousers and his hand up the front of her top. He's cheated on me. Again. I don't know what I'm doing but run over to this blonde Barbie and grab her hair, yanking and pulling her fake extensions out and dragging my nails down her arm then realizing this is the same lady from Office who sold me my beautiful leaver's high heels.
'HOW COULD YOU!' I scream, shout, swear and lash out until Kieran restrains me. I turn to Kieran and say 'You knew, didn't you? YOU KNEW AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME!'
'I am so sorry Is. I told him to leave you last night when I saw him.'
'HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN?' He looks at me and sighs pulling an apologetic face.
'How could you Kieran?' I pull away from him and look at Jack who is bleeding heavily on the floor. What do I do? Well I go over and kick him-that's what.
'I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME!' I say frustrated with tears.
He says nothing.
'I hate you Jack.' I walk off inconsolably crying but I'm pulled back by Kieran. 'LET GO OF ME!' I scream at him. 'HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL ME!'
'I wanted him to end it. I didn't want to make you upset. I couldn't bear doing that to you.'
'LOOK AT ME NOW KIERAN!'
'I wanted to protect you Is. He was supposed to end it with you, explaining what he's been doing I couldn't face telling you because I know you wouldn't believe me.'
'SO YOU WANTED ME TO FIND OUT LIKE THIS!'
'No...'
I cut in 'How long have you known?' I say slowly, forcing the words out.
He pauses 'I found out yesterday afternoon.'
'Why didn't you tell me? From the moment you knew you should have told me Kieran. I told you when Poppy was cheating on you instantly; I thought you would at least have the decency to tell me.'
'After what happened yesterday the last person who I thought you'd want to see was me. I've told you many time that he is a cheating...'
'NOT SERIOUSLY THOUGH! I pull my hand out of his throbbing hand and walk off.

Instinctively, I get in my car and drive off to my favorite place in the whole wide world-the beach. The tranquility, the peacefulness of it is what I need right now. I need to be alone and think through my messed up life. How can I love two guys who aren't honest with me, yet I don't love the one guy that is in that way? I'm through with men.