Is It All My Fault..

Is it all my fault.. am I the reason for all this hurt and pain..
Did I simply push all the people I love away..
Did I push him away.. stop him from ever liking me today..
Am I blaming the past for my hatred towards myself..
Are these tears I cry.. just a lie.. a cover up..

Is this all my fault.. no one else’s..
Am I to blame for all my hate and pain..
I can’t change the past.. but if I could I would..
I can’t make those I loved that left.. ever come back..
I can’t make him ever like me the way I love him..
I can’t control others.. but I can control me..

And yet.. I am still questioning it.. is it my fault..
Am I a bad person.. living in denial.. watching those who I long to be live there perfect lives.. and hating every moment of my own life..
Is this all my fault..?