Incomplete Wish...

Why am I crying
When I know the outcome..
When I know that he's not mine..
!!!!!!!

I wish he's...
I wish I'm never getting hurt...
I love him badly..
& I'm dying slowly..!!

Finally when I found who loves me back..
It's just never meant to be..
I don't even know..
That if he loves me at all !!
& that I'm not an illusion of what ..
Of what he's searching in her !!

I can't let go & walk away...
Is this how love is like?!
I don't want to love at all..
I just wanna rest my mind..
But nothing seems to help..
& I'm only falling apart..

When I thought I was strong enough !!
Strong enough to look ahead !!
& just .... Let go !!
Let go of everything !!

But have you ever heard !!
That a kind heart ...
Could be heartless??!!
I can't turn to one..
When I have this in me...
.....
You make me happy...
You give me the best smile...
& you know it all...
But it just seems that..
My WISH would never be complete...!!
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P.S >> Notes of a girl that is deeply in luv ... & scared to death...