In Front of a Mirror

I drift into darkness
falling,
fading,
suffocating,
drowning in a pool of darkness.
Trapped in a room of sorrow;
lost inside the blackness of sin.
I feel invisible walls crush me,
what can I do when I'm lost within?
I can only pray for a drop of light
or a small pitch of sound.
I reach my hand towards an unknown abyss
even though I cannot see
the tears flowing in front of me.
I have no comfort of my lovers kiss
and after what feels like an eternity
of reliving bad memories
I open my eyes.....
I see myself back in front of a mirror
looking at who I am
realizing I'm in that dark hole of sin
which is why no one gives a damn.
Now I know why I can't breathe,
why it's so dark and I'm alone.
Now I know why I feel tears
and no sound of anyone at home.
I don't remember what its like to have a kiss
but how could anybody ever love this?!
I've lost my way
with nothing to say
except I'm sorry.
Maybe it's too late to make things better;
nothing for sorry or apologetic letters.
So I stand in front of a mirror
looking at the monster in the frame
and I become full of fear
because I know what it's named,
that damned soul I see
is only me.....