I'm Sorry

You ruined my life.
Are you happy now?
Dreams plague me at night.
Thoughts crash on me during the day.
Thinking of how things should've been,
Could've been,
Would've been.
But they'll never be the same.
Change is harsh.
Especially when it's something you can't control.

It's not fair,
The stuff that's happened,
The crap I've been through.
You say you've been hurt too.
But you caused it,
I think.
Maybe it's my fault,
She's gone.
I'm annoying,
I talk about boys too much,

I've got my head in the clouds,
I'm insensitive.
Maybe it's both our faults.
Either way,
We can't change it.
She's gone,
She's not coming back.
And it sucks,
You know?
True friends are rare,

And when you meet them,
You never forget them.
No matter how hard I try,
I can't forget.
And I know you can't forget either,
Even though you smile.
That happiness, it's all fake,
Suffering is hidden deep inside.
Because we both know,
We had a true friendship.

Even though we fought,
And things got really bad,
That friendship was still there.
Now it is broken,
Beyond repair.
If we weren't real friends,
Then why,
When our bond was crushed,
Did it hurt so much?
I think a little part of us,

Died that day.
When she left,
And never came back.
But the other part of us,
Still hopes,
Still dreams,
We will have that friendship again.
Though it isn't possible,
Because of another separation
Happening this year,

One in which will separate us,
So much,
That we probably won't meet again,
Or feel the happiness we once had.
But I don't regret it,
Those few years we shared,
The memories I now hold close.
It seems now a dream,
The past we lived together.
But I know it was real,

Because I look at the pictures,
And I see true friendship.
So I hope you won't forget me,
And only remember the bad times.
Because as remarkable as it seems,
There were times,
When we were truly happy,
And the thought of tearing apart,
Was unthinkable.
But now we have to go,

So I'll say one last thing before we leave,
And that is,
Once a friend, always a friend.
Goodbye,
And I'm sorry.