I'm Nothing Without You chap3

Finally night fall came. I’m really looking forward to call off the day but just then it struck me as I enter my room, I’m not sleeping in my bed tonight. I looked intently at the new occupant in my bed. Reality then hit me. This man is handsome! His light brown hair, a well formed brow that had dramatically shapes his face and very well formed lips. I had notice a while ago when we were having our lunch that he got grey eyes. At the thought of that I can’t help but smiled at myself. He got a very expressive eye it was as if I could see his very soul through it.

I sigh as I look closely at his features. ‘You sure had a rough day, huh.’ I told him in a whisper. I look at him intently and thinking how it feels to touch his face. For a moment I’m just contented at looking at him. But suddenly, to my aghast, my hand moves on it’s on as if it has a mind of its own. I found myself reaching for his face, brush his hair that had cover his eyes, touch his perfectly shape brows, trace the bridge of his nose and his lips-

‘What are you doing?’ he asks me without opening his eyes.

This can’t be good, I thought. I immediately jerk my hand of his face. ‘I- I just…uhm…’ I clear my throat. ‘I’m here to check you up.’ I harshly put my hand in his forehead then I said. ‘It seems to me that you’re okay.’

‘Could you do it a little bit gentle next time?’ he said with a trace of annoyance in his voice. He looks at me with those expressive grey eyes of his.

‘Opps… sorry.’ I said to him and smiled sheepishly at him. ‘Goodnight then.’

‘Avie, were will you sleep?’

‘I can manage. Don’t worry about me. What’s important know is your fast recovery.’ I said and without a word I marched outside my room. I sleep in the couch that evening.

‘What’s happening?’ I ask loudly.

‘Ma’am you need to get out.’

‘No!’ I stubbornly said at the nurse. ‘I’m not-’

‘I need a defibrillator.’ The senior surgeon said.

‘Gareth?! No please don’t do this to me. I thought you said you love me? Then provide it to me. Please don’t die on me Gareth please-’ I felt my head had hit a very hard thing and now it’s hurting quite a lot. I open my eyes and found out that I fell from the couch. I sigh and then wipe the tears in my eyes. It keeps on hunting me, I thought as I let out the fresh tears that were forming in my eyes. For a while I didn’t moved from the floor I just cry and cry my heart out.

‘Gareth…’ I whisper and then sigh.

Finally I ‘m able to hold my composure and had hit by the sad reality. I was there but I can’t help Gareth. It’s entirely my fault in the first place. I should be the one who died not him. I waited another minute to pass to ease my tension. I took a very deep breath before I stand up. Then it struck me as fast as lightning. Something isn’t right, I saw pillows in the couch and a blanket that is now lying in the floor. I remember too well that I haven’t brought a blanket and pillows with me before I sleep.

‘This could be means that-’ I rushes towards my room and saw him sleeping soundly. I shook my head and then covers him with the blanket I use I awhile ago. ‘You need this more than I do.’ I whisper at him. I collect my drawing materials from my drawer. I’m about marched out in my room but I’m interrupted by a soft moaned. I’m stiffened and hold my breath. I heard another moaned but this time even softer than the first and barely audible. I’ve waited for a couple of minutes to pass before I let go of my breath. I move towards him.

‘You’re such a nice guy. I really hope you’re memory will return soon.’ I smile weakly when I remember our conversation this morning. ‘I know it’s hard for you to trust me but for now that’s the best thing to do right.’

I sat on the sand near the shore and started sketching and after just a few minutes I forgot what’s happening in my surroundings. Finally sunrise came and it is my favorite subject to draw. My favorites subject to sketch were nature and people. But recently I more found of sketching nature. It had given me the feeling of calmness, somewhat strength and courage to go on with my life. To that I can’t help but think about Gareth. I wish I can share this to him, I wish he can see what I saw no, just like the way before.

‘I miss you, baby.’ I utter. Another tear threaten to form in my eyes and before I lose my composure again I stand up and headed towards my house. The daylight had already breaks and I don’t want anybody see me crying because I don’t give a damn to their sympathy.

‘Good morning.’ I greeted him. As I enter the house, I saw him seating comfortable in the couch. ‘I’ll prepare our breakfast. Just gave me a minute.’

He nods at me and follows me I the kitchen.

‘How are you feeling today? How’s your head? Does it still hurt?’

‘Sort of but only a little.’

‘That’s nice. After our breakfast I’ll change your bandage.’ I said. Then I think of something. ‘Hey, is it okay for you, if I gave you a name? It’s kind of weird not having a name to call you. I need it so that I can introduce you to my mother. She’s coming home today.’

‘It’s okay for me. I was just thinking about it myself yesterday.’

‘Are you now?’ I ask smiling at him. All the trace of sadness and bitterness that I felt a while ago were already gone, as I thought it was. ‘So what can I call you? Hhmmm… How about I call you… Ervic?’ he made face. ‘Edge?’ he snorted as if he says oh come on! I giggle at him. ‘Okay how about Leigh? What do you think?’

‘Leigh is much better thank you very much.’ He said looking straight at my eyes and then smile at me.

I chuckle and then extend one hand. ‘Well I’m Avie.’ I formally said to him.

He reaches my hand and grips it firmly but gently. ‘Leigh. It’s a pleasure meeting you Avie.’

‘The pleasure is mine. Come let’s eat so that you can take your medicine.’

‘Mom I saw him the other night lying motionless in the sand. I came to his rescue and given him a shelter for the fear he might have hypothermia because he’s soaking wet. As I came for his rescue he’s not breathing and has a weak heartbeat.’ I start explaining to my mother in a lower voice. She was devastated to see me with a guy inside our hut all by ourselves. ‘After a day he came around, I thought it will be ok but I was wrong. Mom he loses his memory! He can’t remember anything before he opens his eyes. When I found him that night, his head was bleeding, so I suspect it was the cause of his Amnesia. Now, if you’re in my shoes, will you offer him to stay or you want him to leave here?’ I challenge her. ‘I have a sole responsibility in him right after I save his life.’

‘Okay… okay… I get it.’ She said a little bit irritated with me.

I smile at her. She knew too well that when I needed something I can annoy he all day until she said yes. Besides, she’s my mom. ‘Don’t worry mom his Amnesia might be temporary so anytime he will regain his lost memory in a snap.’

‘What if it’s not temporary?’ she asks me skeptically.

‘Then we have a new family member.’ I said with a laugh and hug her.

‘I knew you’ll say something like that.’ her mom said and then hugs her tight. ‘You loss a weight Avie and by looking at you, you haven’t had enough sleep this past months. What are you doing to yourself? You might get sick…’

She rolls her eyes at her mother and marched outside her room. ‘Here we go again.’