I'll Have Another

Why is it, year after year
That I am still surprised
That after school I disappear
From my fellows eyes?

I was always fun and made you laugh
Yet was that just your disguise
I'm there, I'm gone, and now I'm half
Why do I even try?

Ever think that just because
The school bell has rung
That I no longer exist
Well I guess that notes been sung.

Am I invisible or just unimportant
To all of you who watch
If I were dying and laying in blood
Would you say "Just ignore it"?

I still exist! I am right here
Do I not feel as you do
Is it that you don't fear
For I've always allowed you to?

Why do I care, why do I bother
I just drink my pains away
Sir, please, I'll have another
It's not like I matter anyway.

Time moves on as it always has
And I fear for my sanity.
The cause of this dear rhyme I wonder
Is it your, or my own vanity?

I believe I have the right to say this
Since I've been left ignored again.
I will sit with this shot glass
And pour on 'til the end.