If You Only Knew...

I try to reason why,
Its like you have some kind of control over my heart.
Every time you leave, I let you in,
only to give me scares again.
This heart has been scared a million times before,
and it cries, every time you walk out that door.

I will be ok I tell myself every time,
I wipe my tears with the back of my sleeve
And I tuck the sleeve in my sweater
So no one can see.
while I sit by the window
And hope you will come by
I wish you would
Why can't you stay here by my side?

When I see your face
I see a lady I adore
My heart is happy and my pain is gone,
Even when you yell at me
And tell me how useless I am
I wish I could make it right
I just do not know how
I wish I can hold you,
and tell you how I feel inside.

I know there is nothing left here
I still see your face in every girl.
I can't love them
I don't know myself anymore
my heart has become like a stone
If you only knew the pain inside,
that my heart is alive, only when you are by my side.