If It Makes Me Happy

I wrote this poem when I found my used-to-be-girlfriend cheating on me. I went home and wanted to die that night, but realized that she didn't deserve my hurt...or love.

If I'm happy,
It makes me sad.
If I'm sad,
It makes me depressive.
If I'm depressive,
I get suicidal.
If I get suicidal,
I hurt myself.
If I hurt myself,
I am happy.

If it makes me happy...