I was Lost and Found

I will work till I bleed,
I need the power to be freed.
Evil used to be my way of life,
I even made it my wife.

I dug myself in a shitty place,
And filled my life with disgrace.
All I sought was acceptance,
But why? from such a presence.

I fell deeper and deeper into oblivion,
Life was utter madness.
I would look for an exit, find it,
But walk the opposite direction.

I was being sucked into a black hole,
It had total control.
Even though I knew what had to be done,
I ignored him, my son.

It's like I was lost in an unknown time,
Living just for that next high,
Wanting nothing but love,
But living in total contradiction.

Why would you build a house,
Just to burn it down,
Why all the trouble, just to frown,
I didn't know who I was, I was lost.

I hated myself, and wanted an end,
So I gave up my pride, and
Went out with a graceless stride,
I have found that man,
He does what he can,
To be freed of having to live a life of greed.