I Think I'm Dying Inside

Darkness is eating my soul,
Madness is eating my mind,
Hate has beaten up my corpse.
Left me alone
I am no longer alive
I do no longer exist
The air I breathe is nothing but broken glass going down my throat
The tears I cry feel like fire creeping down my cheeks
Burning my skin
Every word they say tears a gap in my heart,
Or at least, in what’s left of it.
All I ever wanted was to be an everlasting flower,
Both bold and beautiful.
All I ever wanted was to be glad – to be alive.
Now, I’m still nothing,
I’m still dead to the world
My blood is pouring out on the ground as I lie here
Trying to remember the good times
All the good things that happened to me
How sad to find them gone.
The only memories I have left, are the only ones I wanted to forget,
No matter how many times I close my eyes,
It seems that I cannot make the pictures inside my head disappear.
My life was lead by fear
What I fear now is my past.
My future doesn’t exist
My present is a mess
And my past is what makes me think,
Thinking makes the pain grow
And while the pain is blossoming
I see how the blue sky above my head slowly turns black
The stars begin to shine
Tomorrow will come sooner than I expect
I try to smile - look happy
But I wish I could die in front of everyone so they all can see;
I was a living person
I was no different from them
I could cry, I could scream.
And if I had just had the opportunity, I’m sure I could laugh too.
So when I stand in front of you tomorrow
Please!
Try not to forget the pain hidden behind this smile