I Surrender

I surrender the fight, the fight against my self
I surrender the fight to be someone
The fight to be important

To my dreams
To my nightmares
To the fears I feel

I don’t surrender to the man made God
I surrender to a light that is kind

I surrender to the earth and the seasons of it.
I surrender to creation, to human nature
Perfect in its imperfections
I surrender the battle for perfection
And to self inflicted punishment
When perfection is not reached

I surrender the fight to control my life
The fight to control other people
I surrender to those trying to control me

I surrender to trying to understand
And just accept
I surrender the need
To be understood and accepted

I surrender to my instinct
I surrender to my mind
To my madness
To my insight

I surrender my anger
My resentment
I surrender to pretending I don’t have it

To tears in private
To tears in public
What others think of me

I succumb to the flow

I surrender my failures and the pain of it
I surrender to the good in life
I surrender to the good inside of me
I surrender to the dark
and the emptiness it brings
To scabs, to healing
I surrender to love
I surrender to change and changing

I surrender to find peace.
I surrender to find freedom
I surrender to this moment