I Sit And Think And Wonder Why...

I sit and think and wonder why..
You have to hurt and cut me inside
I wonder if you'll stop if you knew what I wished
My life is dark, it's not your fault
That everyday I cry, when I'm reminded of you

I sit and think and wonder why..
The days get longer, when you're not here
I'm getting weaker instead of stronger
Heartache calling for you to heal
Why can't you see what your doing to me?

I sit and think and wonder why..
I can't feel satisfied
I wish I could go back in time, and be with you once more
To hold you in my arms, to be with you my dear
Even for a second, I really wouldn't care

I sit and think and wonder why..
I cry this way when I watch you afar
If you loved me then surely you'll stay
But yet I search for the worst
Reaching out for you, waiting for you to be near
Would it make a difference to you even if I disappeared?

I sit and think and wonder why..
I have to live without you
I could clearly rather die
This pain I feel is too much to bare
Maybe one day you'll be there, to wipe this tear

I sit and think and wonder why..
I love you this much to end it right here!