I Shouldn’t Feel This Way

Im sick of crying the tears of this unknown sadness.
Tired of mutilating myself over this enigmatic fear.
I weep for non-existing dead I'm done crying out for a problem I don’t have.
If there is nothing wrong with me then why do I cry.
Why do these dead faces I've never seen haunt my dreams.
Why do I never write happy poems?
Is my life that bad..... no mostly not enough for this spiritual torture.