I Owe You

I owe you reverence,
I owe you geniality,
I owe you benevolence,
I owe you exaltation,
I owe you integrity,
I owe you reliance,
I owe you gospel,
I owe you abundance.

I owe you whatever I received,
I owe you whatever I gained,
I owe you whatever I desired,
I owe you whatever I prayed for,
I owe you whatever I lost.

Yes, I owe you the most for whatever I lost.

I lost you my best friend. The day the world celebrated your presence, the presence of a friend, I lost you that very day.
Did I lose you coz I didn't deserve you? Or is it that I couldn't live up, to deserve you?
It can be possible that I did not make enough efforts to win you or may be all my efforts failed towards winning you.
Do you believe that I expected too much from you? Or is it that I failed to fulfill your expectations. I do not know the reason friend, I just know that I lost you.
I lost you for no good but probably lost you for your good. I lost you happily as it was what you wanted. I lost you unbelievably coz I still cannot believe it. I lost you unknowingly coz I wouldn't have if I knew I was.
I lost you helplessly as I didn't have any other option.
The arduous truth, however, is that I lost you.
I lost you when I needed you the most. I lost you when I had no one to look up to.
I lost you when I thought I had you. I lost you when I believed that I cannot possibly lose you.
Will you ever come to know how much I have suffered after losing you? Can you even think of the pain I have gone through?
Do you know how much I aspired you?
I know you think I will be good 'sans' you. But the truth is that I am directionless without you.
You my friend, are the only one I treasured. You are the only one I fought with.
You are the one I hated. You are the one I truly loved.
My dear friend, best friend, best of all friends, I want to tell you that I wish you luck and pray for your well being. I pray that you never lose the one you love as losing your best friend is the biggest loss and you do not deserve to suffer such a loss.
One must try to lose ego, impatience, intolerance, faithlessness, jealousy, anger, selfishness, dishonesty and negativity so that he does not lose the delightful things in life.