I Know They're Out To Get Me

A bitumen of maddening thoughts,
Stir in the cauldron of my heart,
Mixed with fear and dread, they're thought,
The whole world is against me.
I know they're out to get me!

I cower in the shadow's gloom,
In the deepest corner of my room,
To feel safe within my quilted womb,
Away from their bloody misery.
I know they're out to get me!

I surface with a darting eye,
Is it really safe to rise?
Or is someone lurking there, outside,
Waiting at my entry?
I know they're out to get me!

The ghosts from my haunted past,
Are gathering within my thoughts,
The skeletons from my closet, mass,
To wail their haunted medley.
I know they're out to get me!

Dark deeds done so long ago,
Dark deeds buried with the snow,
Sail back downstream with the thaw,
To berth within my memories.
I know they're out to get me!

Was that a tap upon my door?
A shadow cast upon my floor?
Did the doorknob really rattle so?
Did a spectre just walk through me?
I know they're out to get me!

My eyes are dark with worry's woes,
My body shakes from head to toe,
The fear of something I don't know,
Has cast it's terror upon me.
I know they're out to get me!

I rue the day I done the deed,
I rue the anger that raged deep,
I rue the day I left them dead,
Their penalty for taunting me.
I know they're out to get me!

I fear reprisal will come soon,
Retaliation will be my doom,
Revenge for all the wrongs I'd done,
I drown in my self pity.
I know they're out to get me!

I try to plead my sorry state,
To beg forgiveness for their fate,
But I fear my pleas have come too late,
Their hands are reaching for me.
I know they're out to get me!

They scream and wail into my mind,
I close my ears and eyes to find,
The nightmare memories of how they died,
And the slaughter I inflicted,
I know they're out to get me!

The crescendo of their screams and wails,
Claw through my guilt with sharpened nails,
My last vestige of resistance fails,
And I cede my soul to thee.
I cede that they have got me!