I Don't Know

I don't know what it is like to feel the sun. I don't know what it's like to feel fun. I don't know that I no longer know. All the things I once cared for I have let go. I don't know if I ever really cared in the first place. I don't know if I am just putting my time to waste. I don't know what the truth is. I don't know what a lie is. I don't know what the sky is. I don't know how to survive this pain. I don't know how to break this feeling, the feeling of not knowing. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to feel. I don't know that love will never come my way. I don't know the world has turned to gray. I don't know what to think. I don't know that my mind has begun to sink. I don't know how to hold my mind together. I don't know that it will get better. I don't know what waits behind or ahead. I don't know anything anymore, except that death is finally knocking on my door.