How Does It Feel He Doesn't Have Feelings For Me?

What does it feel like to know he doesn't have feelings for me?
Well,
It don't feel good,
Not that it should,
But it feels like all hope is gone,
Not that I had much anyway,
But still it was that little bit that kept me going,
And well,
All of that is gone now too,
Not that me getting let down is anything new,
No me giving up is why past due,
It's just we used to be two,
and I believed everything you said was true,
But then you ending us,
I was devastated,
I cried,
A lot,
I probably cried until all my tears were gone,
I mean You were my first love,
And my were I mean are,
You are my first love,
But you didn't stop talking to me,
No,
You flirt,
And that is what gave me hope,
Hope that you still like me,
Maybe not as much as I still like you,
But,
Enough,
But now hearing you don't have feelings for me,
I'm crushed,
I'm crying,
I'm realizing you been playing with me,
Trying to fill me with glee,
Leaving me thinking that you still like me,
But none of it is true
It's all a lie,
I'm just your game,
That amuses you to play
So I hope your happy I'm crushed,
Because you don't know how much you mean to me,
I wish you did sometimes,
But if we can't be friends without you playing with me,
Then please help me ease pain and let's not be friends.