Help Me Please

How can I explain,
This feeling bubbling up inside,
My best friend is now moving.

I've dealt with friends wanting suicide,
A guy I've made mistakes with,
That I regret everyday.

The feeling of sorrow building up,
I hate life in every way,
I can't seem to be happy.

I'm always tired, always wanting rest,
I don't laugh as much as I did before,
But I promise I'm not depressed.

I guess I'm just tired of living like this,
Dealing with it day-to-day,
I just wish I had some solace.

I wish there was a way,
That may be there'd be joy to find,
Somewhere out there for me,
I'm sick of always being sad,
I want to feel happy.